Lost [bts; k.t.]

25 - Still

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"I'm sorry."

I ran as fast as I could. I didn't even dare to look back.

I'm so sorry, Jungkook. I don't want to hurt you. I didn't answer you because I didn't want to hurt you.

I don't want to hurt people, I'm scared to hurt you. You're really precious to me.

I love you but I don't love you that way. I bit my lip as I ended at the middle of the road.

I stopped, and my feet started hurting. I frowned and quickly took my heels of when I felt something wet dropped on my shoulder.

Then, it started raining.

"Aish." I groaned, as I quickly made my way towards the bench and sat there.

I sat there the whole time, watching the people walk, the cars pass and the rain drop.

My heart was still pounding. After that long run, I became so tired.

I suddenly remembered Jungkook's face. He was still smiling. I don't even want to imagine what he looks like right now.

I disappointed them. Especially, Jungkook. He waited for this day to come and I ruined it.

Everything was amazing. In fact, everything was perfect.

My eyes started to water. I hate myself. I should've just answer him. I was selfish. He loved me but I couldn't return my feelings.

I'm stupid. I'm confused. I can't think properly.

I left Jungkook. He loves me but I didn't love him back.

V's only pretending? V cares for me? V wants me to wait for him?

My father has another family.

I couldn't think properly. Everything is happening so fast. What did I do to deserve this?

"What did I do to deserve this?" I repeated my thoughts, as the rain dropped on my face.

Sometimes I just think that I should just die. I'm a horrible person. No one needs me.

I'm hurting Jungkook. V has Athena. I probbably don't deserve to live. Should I just die?

But they say suicide is not the answer. Then what is? No one is answering my fucking questions! And I hurt people!

Being strong for a long time is bad. It makes you so tired. Sometimes I just want to die because I'm tired of being strong.

I felt the cold ground as the stood up, the rain blurring my vision.

I noticed a car coming by. What would happen if I disappear in the world? What would happen?

Everything will stop if I do this right?

I took a deep breath and left my heels on the bench. "I don't want to be strong anymore." I whispered to myself, as I gulped and walked towards the street, waiting to-

Someone grabbed me. Someone took me and wrapped their arms around me.

Someone was there. I was relieved and mad at the same time. Relieved because someone saved me. Mad because someone stopped me.

"Ree, don't do this." His husky voice, made my eyes widen. His breath brushed my nose as he pulled me back towards the rain.

"Please." His voice, comforting me as he hugged me tightly, not letting me go.

I bit my lip as tears suddenly escaped my eyes. I'm glad that it's raining.

"What are you doing here?" I asked as my lips trembled, his warm hug was very comforting.

"I followed you." He plainly said, before pulling away but his hands were on my waist, now.

"Who told you to?" I bitterly said, crossing my arms, trying to avoid his look.

"You ran. Of course, I'm- We're worried." He stammered. "Let go of me." I commanded, which he quickly did.

"Sorry." He apologized, letting go of my waist.

We stayed silent for a minute as the rain drenched us. "Ree." He spoke, breaking the ice and making my heart skip a beat.

"Ree, look at me."

He whispered, as he held my chin. I shivered with the way he held me. This guy seriously, he always surprises me.

I slowly turned to him, his hand is still holding my chin.

Our eyes met. Then everything slowly came back. My feelings. I still love him. Fuck I love him more than anything.

I started crying, again. "Why?" I cried, as his expression slightly changed.

He suddenly cupped my face, making me flinch. "Don't cry. It doesn't suit you." He said, trying to wipe my tears away even if though it was disguised by the rain.

"I'm not crying." I lied, trying to shove his hand away. "I know you, Ree." He said as he stopped caressing my face.

"I don't..." I trailed, I started panting. "I don't love Jungkook." I finished, clenching my fists as I examined him.

A small smile formed on his lips. "I know." He whispered, pulling me into a hug.

"Stay away from me!" I cried, pushing him away which surprised him. "I hate you. I hate you, V." I muttered.

"I know." He answered, staring at the ground.

"I hate you! I thought I didn't care for you! I thought I didn't love you!" I cried.

He just stood there, clenching his fists. "I thought that I already let go of my feelings! But no!" I whimpered.

"Everytime, I see you. Everytime you show up. It all goes back!" I yelled.

He finally raised his head and looked at me locking our gazes.

"Why can't I let go?" I tried to punch his chest but I was to weak. "Why can't I forget?" I sobbed.

"Why?! Answer me, Kim Taehyung! Answer me!" I cried, panting as I slammed my fists to his chest, repeatedly.

"Ree..." He whispered.

"V.." I whispered back.

"I still fucking love you, Kim Taehyung. Still." I cried, as my heart started pounding again.

Still. It didn't go away. I still love him. He was still my everything. He was still my heart. He was still my love.

But me? I'm nothing to him.

"I'm nothing to you." I hissed. "I'm fucking nothing to you."

"No-"

"Then what? What am I to you?"

"You're Ree. You're my Ree."

I stopped breathing. My eyes widened, as I stared at him.

He leaned towards my ear. "You're not the only one, I still fucking love you too." He grinned.

Then he pressed his lips into mine.

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Sorry for the cliffhanger. Sorry for the dramatic chapter. Sorry for the cheesy chapter. Sorry for the short chapter. This was actually hard to write.

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