I move, I tried so many times to put away all my sorrows through dancing. I'm not totally alone in my life, but I feel empty. I hate my mother so much, and I really pity my father.
"Ahh!" I shouted, as I felt the pain in my knees.
"I hate you, Ma." Nag-umpisang tumulo ang luha sa aking mga mata. Ipinagtabi ko ang aking mga paa at yinakap ang aking mga tuhod na parehas ngayong may gasgas.
"Why does everything seem so tough for me?"
That day, in between my sobs, I felt a hand slowly tapping my shoulder and as I lifted my head, I saw him wearing his tender smile on his lips again.
"Let me help you soften it then," he said as he handed me a handkerchief.
In the next few minutes, after he put a band-aid on the bruises on my knees, no one dared to say anything to fill the silence in this music room. I let out a shy sigh, as I tapped my fingers on my left thigh.
"I'll listen." Napatingin ako sa kaniya, pagkatapos ay bumagsak ang aking tingin sa aking mga tuhod.
"I'm just tired on my life's rotation. Lahat na lang ng gusto ko parang hindi pwede." Nag-umpisa akong diinan ang aking mga daliri upang mapigilan ko ang nagbabadya na luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata.
"You said, music can make you dance freely. I am able to dance already, but why can't I feel the freedom? I want to be a ballerina, while my mother's pushing me to become a pianist. I need a complete family but it's impossible now."
"Nakakasawa na mabuhay."
"Stop saying that, someone out there's dying so bad to prolong their life."
"Nasasabi ko lang naman iyan dahil hirap na hirap na ako sa sitwasyon kung nasaan ako."
"Maybe you're still lucky." Sarkastiko akong natawa sa kaniyang sinabi.
"Lucky? Kung ikaw ang nasa sitwasyon ko ay hindi mo iyan masasabi."
"Have you ever begged your mother for your father to be with you all the time but she didn't let you, because your mother chose other man, and decided to end their relationship totally?"
"Did you already stare on the ceiling, and just cry because whatever you did, you can't sleep because of those fucking 3 AM thoughts?" Napa-irap ako at dahan-dahan ng tumayo mula sa aking pagkakaupo sa may hagdan ng stage.
"No," sagot niya.
"Then, don't say anything like it's wrong to just run away from my life."
"You're not only the one who's carrying a burdens in this world, Jeliah." Nag-umpisa akong maglakad pababa ng hagdan.
"Did you ever see your mother and father together, yet one of them still longing for their past and can't move on totally towards their present?" Napahinto ako sa kaniyang katanungan. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko na rin ang kaniyang pagtayo. At siya pa ang naunang nakababa sa akin ng hagdan.
"Have you ever been in a situation wherein you didn't know if you need to be happy or get hurt, because even your family's completed, the love within it is broken?" Pinagmasdan ko siya na umupo sa silya, sa may harap ng piano at sandaling tumugtog ng isang piyesa doon.
"It's easy for me to do what I want, and pursue my dreams. But passion doesn't always bring you happiness, sometimes as long as you're doing it, you're also playing with pain. And it's exactly what I'm feeling." Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at naglakad palapit sa kaniya habang ako ay nakayuko.
"I'm..."
"I mean, hindi ko alam na mayroon ka rin pala pinagdadaanan na ganiyan kabigat." Ngumiti siya sa akin, at ng pagkakataon na iyon, ay mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng paghanga sa kaniya. How can he managed to show that kind of glimmering smile? Kalaunan ay hinala niya ang isang silya at itinapat iyon katapat ng sa kaniya. After that he signed his hand for me to sit there.
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Lullabies Of Pain (Anxiety Series#3) (COMPLETED)
Novela Juvenil"At least, you once became my comfort." I want to be happy genuinely, but I don't know when I'll be free from something that keeps on giving me burdens. I'm exhausted from the noise of my parent's fight. On a sad night, it's the pain that serves as...
