My Girl

part 26

I got the plane home that night. I couldn't stay in this country anymore. The Germans were here clearly after us. My brothers  needed my help.

Even though my brothers did need my help. I secretly wished throughout the whoke flight, prayed even, that it woukd crash, killing me. So I could be with my girl once more.

Never in my life have I cried so much. Just holding myself. Not caring that people were staring. I wasn't able to get the jet, it wasn't prepared to travel back in such short notice, so I got a random ticket back home on a public plane.

Thankfully no one was sat next to me.

I had arrived home hours later. Crying so much ends in numbness. And that was the only way to describe how I felt at this moment in time. Numb.

As I walked round the airport and collected my bags, I had no emotion on my face. I couldn't show emotion with this many people around.

As u grabbed my bag I felt a hand on my back, I turned to see a young woman. About my age I'd
Say. "Hey, I saw you on tje plane and I just wanted to check if your okay?" And with that simple question. I broke down again. Great.

My knees crashed against the ground for the second time in 24 hours. The women crouched down besides me, "Hey, it's okay.. let it out.. I'm Poppy. What's your name?" Her voice was almost as soothing as Victoria's was.

"Gabriel?" She read of the tag on my suitcase. I nodded my head.
"Come with me, Let's get you sat on a chair rather then the floor."
She grabbed my arm and pulled me towards a set of chairs.

"What happened? You can talk to me, I'm a therapist..." I don't know why but that just made me feel like I could trust her. So I poured my heart out about Victoria. Obviously leaving out all mafia details. Before I knew it the women, Poppy pulled me into a hug. I tensed up. What was she doing? Quickly, I pushed her off.

It felt like I was cheating on Victoria.

Before she could say anything I got up and stormed off. Her following me. Can't she take a hint? "Gabriel? Gabriel?! Did I do something." She called out after me. I didn't take notice to her untill she caught up.

"LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! YOUR CLEARLY NOT A VERY GOOD THERAPIST! MY WIFE JUST DIED NOW YOUR CONFUSED WHY IM GET ANNOYED THAT YOUR HUGGING ME. IT FEELS LIKE IM CHEATING ON HER AND I DONT KNOW WHY?!" so many emotions took over as I screamed at her.

Poppy handed me a card. "Okay your clearly freshly hurting, but when your ready.. give me a call and I'll help you, how to control all of your emotions in a healthy way." With that she left.

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I reached home and everything was silent. Well.. it felt it. Without Victoria yabbering in my ear.. or giggling..

When I entered the house, the first person I saw was one of her brothers. Great. I felt my eyes well up. I wasn't ready to tell everyone. I walked into the lounge where they all sat. All of them looked at me.

"Finnaly! Your back! What's your plan?" Mateo exclaimed while sitting me down. I haven't got a plan..

They all stared at me confused why I didn't say anything. I always had a plan. I could tell they were all starting to notice all the cuts and bruises across my body. Thats when Ruby gasped. Her hands flew over my mouth. Her eyes welling up with tears.

"She isn't visiting family Is she?!" Ruby began sobbing. Mateo, who was extremely confused, pulled Runy into a hug as she sobbed. All of them waiting for me to say something.

My eyes met with Henry's, their dad. "I couldn't protect her... I'm so sorry.. its all my fault" I hadn't noticed the tears pouring out of my eyes. I saw our- my boys heads looking round the corner. Had they heard?! Anastasia, Hugo's Fiancé was sobbing Into his chest. Taylor who was stood at the doorway of the room stood silent as tears poured down her face.

Henry had broke down on the floor. Harrison was in denial and kept shaking his head as tears filled his eyes. Then I saw them, our- my boys. They had approached Taylor but ran in when they saw me. Oh god..

"Where's Mamma?" Luca beamed. Oh god.. he was talking about Victoria. But referred to her as his mum. It crushed me in so many ways I couldn't describe. I felt like my heart had been ripped out.

Everyone in the room went silent as I fought back my tears. I couldn't tell them yet.. but I had to. They'll work it out eventually that something happened to her.
Then Ruby, my saviour, spoke up. "Boys how about we go for a walk in the garden together?" She offered out her hands as all of them walked off together.

My hands held my head as I silently began sobbing again. I needed revenge. And thats how we'll do it. I sat up again, making everyone's eyebrows furrow.

"We let them attack - the Germans. When they attack we kill all the useless ones. But the boss and Any lovers of his. They get captured and come to me. I want to kill them and make Stefan watch.. like how I watched.." I announced. I was the boss of this place. I think. There was no rule of what happened if your wife is killed..