𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚜 |𝚃𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚊 𝚡 𝚏𝚎𝚖!𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚡 𝚈𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚒|

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗- 𝚄𝚗𝚛𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍

Tsukishima's POV

The clock ticked in the background as my pen made sounds each time I write. I couldn't focus. All I felt was frustration and. . . fear. I left my homework half answered, dropping the pen on the table. Walking down the stairs and opened my way to the backyard where countless stars were displayed in the dark sky.

I ran my hand through my hair as I sat down on the porch. I just can't stop thinking about what I did. This is for the best right? It's for her own safety. Right?

I looked at the stars, shining oh so beautifully. I closed my eyes shut. Just wishing she'd be alright. I don't care if I have to give up on these feelings. I don't care if I have to ignore my grades, my health, my skills, I just want her to be safe. I heard the stars twinkling in the background while my eyes were still closed shut.

Where's my happy ending? I can't have one. I don't need one.

Walking to the school hallways alone as always. Something I should get used to by now. It was my actions and now I have to suffer the consequences.

"KEI! HEY! KEI-" [y/n] shouted as she ran towards me, tripping on the process. Thankfully the glasses were okay.

Normally I would just laugh at her then help her get up. That was before.

I scoffed, not even bothering to look back and entered our classroom. She just looked up with star tears threatening to fall but she sucked it back in, in fear for her vision. Yamaguchi rushed right in to comfort her.

"Please. . . Can't we just. . . talk about this. . .?" I hear her before I entered the classroom. But I didn't bother to look back. I wanted to but I can't.

It has been officially almost a month since we found out the cause of the disease. Unrequited love, street name: One-sided love. I figured the only way out of that disease is for the person to love them back. I am not fully sure this is the cure but there's a 79.9% chance it would work.

Why so sudden? Well, if you love someone, will you do anything to keep them alive? Me? Love her?

Was I that obvious?

As the days come by, they seemed to get closer and closer as I only furthered myself away. I really hope this is gonna work. I don't want to waste all my efforts for nothing.

I locked these feelings hidden for so long, in hopes that one day I could let it out. In hopes that one day these feelings would be returned. But she caught that stupid disease.

It should be so obvious that I like her by now. Even Yamaguchi knew. Well, maybe because I told him that. Ugh this is so frustrating. I don't wanna do this. I really don't. But this is the only way to keep her vision well. Who knows what'll happen next. We will never know about the possible effects. ever.

"What about the book?" You ask?

Flashback to three weeks ago

"This is Japan-now flash news, reporting. Just then, famous author Aoki Yuoko sadly passed away from a car crash on her way to Tokyo. Friends says that she was about to go to Tokyo to research more about what she calls 'Star disease' that doctors have never ever heard of. That's it for Japan-now FLASH news."

End of Flashback

In conclusion, the author, Aoki Yuoko, died. There is no way we mere high school students can find anything about this stupid disease. Nor we couldn't find anything else about the possibilities of this disease. Who knows what can happen next? [Y/N] lost 20% of her vision from the last time we talked.

The possible effects will forever remain a mystery. Assumptions are all I can rely on. I know it's stupid. But what else can I rely on right now? Not the internet. Not even the doctors.

I still talk to Yamaguchi when we're with the team. Completely ignoring the questions involving [y/n] so he learned not to mention her.

But no matter how I ignore her. . . Why do I still love her? Why can't these feelings go away? Why can't I move on? Has Yamaguchi fallen over for her yet? Please tell me he did.

More weeks have passed by and I have been so focused on practice lately. I fully cut everything with [y/n]. Though I may have left her two months ago, the feelings remained.

"REALLY [Y/N]?!" I heard Yamaguchi scream in the classroom. "OH GOD THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!" He continued, hugging her in an obvious tight embrace. That familiar pain rushed to my heart, sending daggers like long sharp arrows. Ugh I hate this. Just date already so I could move on damn it. "YOU ARE THE BEST! I PROMISE YOU WON'T REGRET IT [Y/N]!"

"Will following them be a good idea? No that's creepy. But if I do, I can move on. . . I'll just go and pretend I was just passing by. Yeah." It pained me to think I would be present on someone else's confession with [y/n] other than me. It doesn't... feel right anymore. Nothing feels right.