Savior/ Jeffrey dean Morgan

Little mama's

Jeffrey pov

The week flew by, and before i knew it i have to say goodbye to my girls, and go to atlanta to start filming. This is so incredibly bittersweet, don't get me wrong, i love my babies, hell more than i love myself.

But it's going to feel so great doing what i love again. I want more than anything to fly them with me, and all of us stay in georgia for 6 months but that's something i know addison isn't up for.

She's been real upset with the show, considering her character got killed off once they found out she was indeed pregnant.

which i wasn't necessarily upset about that, when Addison was pregnant i didn't want her to overextend herself. Although, towards the one of the pregnancy i had my crazy moment, due to the stress of everything going on at the time but still.

I made sure to get a night flight, that way i could spend as much time with my ladies as possible.

This morning i had let Addison sleep in while Clementine, Violet, and i did our usual morning routine. Which involes feeding, changing, and watching a shit ton of cartoons. it was nice to just get them alone for a good hour WITHOUT Addison hovering over me the whole time.

things have been weird with us ever since she caught my little fiasco on the couch a week ago. She doesn't really even look at me at all anymore, unless i'm handling the babies, in that case it's like she NEVER takes her eyes off of me.

She doesn't even sleep in the room with me, and if she does she puts a pillow wall in between us.

Which is fine, honestly i don't even want to touch her anymore. Which isn't good i know, but she has pushed me to this point.

She is the mother of my babies, and maybe that's all she needs to be to me.

Currently it's dinner time, and in a final attempt to salvage this, I figured i'd make a nice meal. I made steaks, grilled asparagus, and baked potatoes.

we are sitting at the dinner table, Clem and violet are still taking their last naps of the day, i figured maybe this would be the perfect time to tell Addison that i miss us.

She sits down across from me at our kitchen table, i had already made her a plate, even cut her steak for her.

She smiles when she noticed "oh jeff it looks good! you didn't have to cut the steak for me though."

"Ah i know, i just figured why not"

she nods in response and goes about eating her food.

usually i hated the silence between her and i. It would usually make me uncomfortable. But right now i don't really mind it, i'm trying to put off what's really on my mind for the sake of saving myself an argument, and hurt feelings.

Addisons phone begins to ring, she pulls it out and quickly sends it to voicemail, letting out a long sigh.

"everything alright?" i question

"yup"

silence falls again, that was weird, usually if i ever asked her what was wrong she would talk my ears off.

"Addy can i say something?"

"sure"

"I need to know what's going on here before i leave tonight.. because i don't want to leave under the wrong impression" i nervously take a sip of the beer before me.

Addy squints her eyes at me

"What in the fuck is that supposed to mean Jeffrey?" she snarled.

i let out a chuckle, it's clear she wants this to be a fight.

"Oh please save it. you can't even fuckin look at me anymore, you won't touch me, i can't even touch you without you freaking out on me about it. So what is it you feel about us right no-"

she quickly cuts me off, slamming her fork down on the table "God damnit jeff! all you think about is YOU, how YOURE hurt, what about me huh?"

"Well excuse me Addison, but i have ASKED you several times what's going on with you and you refuse to tell me. SO what the FUCK do you want from me?" I shoot back, trying so hard to not make a scene, but she is leaving me absolutely no choice.

she scoffs and shoots up out of the chair, taking her plate and tossing it into the sink, causing it to shatter.

"You don't like the way i act? stay gone. I don't need you. i never did."

her words hit me hard. I was hurt, what the hell has gotten into her? this is NOT the woman i know. this is a complete stranger, and quite frankly with this fuckin behavior i do NOT trust her alone with my kids, lord only knows what the fuck she would do.

I'm faced with a decision here, either i leave and be gone for six months, or i don't leave at all and potentially lose my job.

Finally i made the decision to go, but take my babies with me.

"I'm taking the girls with me to georgia-"

"the FUCK you are!" Addison screams, walking up on me.

I sit still as she gets in my face "You don't get to just take my babies away from me jeffrey, shit doesn't work like that."

"Then come, either fucking way with how you're acting right now, you will not be left alone with OUR children"

She sighs loudly and stomps away to the bedroom, slamming the door shut behind her, cause the frame to rattle a little bit.

This of course earns screams from the girls room.

I take a deep breath in and let it out slowly, trying to calm myself down before approaching the babies.

I hate that they have to be around this negative vibe all of the time, and i know they are starting to feel it, because every time that Addison even goes to pick them up they scream their heads off. 

I cannot in good conscious leave them here with her.

I stand up from the table and quickly make my way to their room, scooping them both up into my arms and soothing them to the best of my ability, but clementine just would not budge, she was scared. 

i set them both back into their cribs and grab a blanket from the living room, and make my way back into their room. I lay the blanket down on the floor as well as my pillow.

i Pick them back up and set them down on the pillow, i quickly grab a curious george book off of the shelf in the room and begin to read.

After about three pages clementine finally stops crying, her little eyes were just focused on the pictures of the little monkey.

Violet ended up falling back asleep, bless her little heart, i know that was a shit way to wake up.

By the third time of reading curious george Clementine gives into her tiredness and falls asleep too. I take a moment to study my baby girls, they truly have me wrapped around their little fingers and they don't even know it yet.

Although, i think violet is starting to get the hint.

I carefully lay down in between the two, and put them into the crook of both of my arms. My mind wanders back to what happened earlier with Addison, and it is clear what i need to do as far as her and i, and it's not easy but i think we have really reached the end of our rope. i just need to be smart about this, go about it in the right ways, that way i can ensure i can still see my baby girls.

"don't worry little mama's, we are going to get through this together."