starting over

chapter 2

"is this really all you brought, or is your parents sending more stuff over?"
jude asks obviously confused by my two suitcases that are to last me here for the rest of my life.
"yeah, I didn't have much I needed back there"
I try to explain without making him more curious, as much as i like him it is slightly off putting that he hasn't asked anything about my past, I wouldn't tell him anything but for all he knows I'm a serial killer and for all i know he is too.
"ok, do you need help unpacking?"
"no" I reply too quickly
"it's ok i just want to make sure I didn't bring anything I didn't need"
"ok, if you change your mind let me know"
"ok thanks"

I spend the next two hours unpacking clothes and other things that I did bring as I had very few things that meant anything to me they were mostly just pictures.

When i leave my room i expected that jude woukd be in his room not sitting out in the living area lying over a complete sofa reading,
"hey" he says cheerfully
"hey, is there a pharmacy or anything near here?"
"you really didn't plan anything for the move did you?" He says humourlessly
"no, is there?"
"why, you need plugs?"
"what? No"
"someone's getting defensive" he chants in a sing song way
"whatever, is there one or not?"
"yeah, do you want me to take you?"
"why so you can see I don't need plugs?"
"that and you don't know the way"
"fine, let's go"
He clears his throat just as I reach the door
"what?"
"helmet and gear going on it in your jeans and jacket was a one off"
he playfully scolds me.
"I'm so sorry please forgive me"
I beg in childish way making him chuckle or laugh.

As soon as we arrive i immediately jump off the bike and practically run into the pharmacy and straight up to the desk i cant let jude know what I'm here for.

"what can I help you with?"
The lady asks me she is sweet but i cant waste time he'll think I have some sort of disorder if he finds out i need sleeping pills.

"do you have any sleeping pills?"
"yes there are some in Isle three but for the good ones you'll need to get a prescription from a doctor "
She explains showing off her perfectly white teeth the whole time she is really pretty i thank her and turn round only to hit into judes hard chest, i stumble back and curse under my breath.
"you are very fast didn't think you were that desperate for some plugs"
he says with a smirk.
"actually this is an old friend of mine, shannon, do you mind if I talk to her while you get them?"
I'm worried he will protest and the lady behind the desk won't back me up on my lie but she smiles sweetly and introduces herself as shannon he says hi and turns to walk away but quietly whispers in my ear to get her number if i want my plugs, i sigh but agree the second he's gone i turn around and thank her.
"it's ok but should you really be keeping that from your boyfriend? "
She asks me
"what? No he's not my boyfriend, I'm a little insulted " I add for humour
"oh well my real name is emily, and did he ask for my number really then?"
"you heard him?"
"ofcourse he's so loud!"
"you should go get them sleeping pills before he comes back"
"yeah thanks"
"oh and here's my number, call me if you want to hang out and if you don't want to give it to him"
I giggle at her and say thanks, people said I would be so lonely here in the big city yet I've already made a friend.

When we get back i bolt into my room and hide the pills under my pillow "great, he'll never find them there" I think but there's no time to move them because he comes in just then.
"do you want me to move your suitcase there's a closet i keep everything in"
"yeah it's right there"
"oh, did you get the number?"
"yeah, here it is"
"okay here, good doing business with you"
He says while throwing tampons at me
"bastard" I mutter under my breath
"sorry what was that he asks while reaching to take the tampons back"
"fine, sorry"
Letting him believe it was that time
"so, what did you do before here, tell me all about ireland "
Shit, i knew he woukd ask about that at some point, but i thought i would have a bit more time to prepare to lie.
"emm the weather's shite"
"is that all that happens in ireland, there's shite weather?"
"I stayed in the same bit, have you been many places?"
I'm so desperate to change the subject, I don't want to lie but i dont want to tell him yet.
"yeah, all over America really"
"Did you travel your whole life?"
"yeah, I think I was always moving around as a kid"
"with family?"
I try to be casual when i ask this but it's really hard
"yeah we were really close"
"by the way my friends having a party at his place tonight wanna go and would your pharmacy friend like it?"
"I don't know if she would like it but you can call her and ask"
"are you going?"
"yeah, I'll see if it's as good as the irish ones "
"trust me it is, I won't ask her as much as you deny it your probably a heavy drinker and i will have to be the one to look after you "
"you would look after me when your wasted?"
"I won't drink tonight, want to be sober when i see how you act drunk"
"whatever, what time does it start?"
"seven, it's half five now"
"ok, get out so I'll start getting ready "
"fine I'll see you drunk"
"bye"
And with that I throw a pillow at his head as he leaves laughing.