starting over

chapter 11

When I wake up in the morning,I am completely drained, i was woken up at three in the morning by jude from another nightmare but luckily it wasnt as bad this time they were all the same but for some reason some scared me more than others, maybe because they brought back different memories.
"jude?"
"hmm?"
"are you awake?"
"little bit"
"okay well your gonna be late for classes because your alarm didn't go off and it's half eight"
"fuck!" he says shooting up immediately and jumping out of bed he grabs yesterday's clothes and puts them quickly on while I grab a fresh pair of skinny jeans and a black tank top with some underwear and make my way to the bathroom, by the time I emerge i have brushed my hair ad it was for once naturally straight and added light make up.
"we need to go now"
"okay, I'll get a coffee at Starbucks when we get there"
"ok, let's go" jude says before Grabbing his keys and handing me my helmet and leaving.

When we arrive we have five minutes until we need to get to class which isn't enough time to get a Starbucks, so I go find emily instead.
"ans, am I driving you home too?"
"is that ok?"
"yeah, see you then I'll be at chemistry"
"ok see ya later"
When i catch up with emily i fire all my questions at her, at once.
"why didn't you like him? Did he say something? Did he not like you?"
"I like him just not that way there was nothing between us even when we kissed it was boring"
"you kissed? He didn't tell me that"
"yeah, he's a really good kisser, confident and all just no spark i guess"
"what is it?"
"what?"
"I know your holding something back, what is it? tell me now"
"im not holding anything back i promise"
I can tell she's lying but she won't tell me so I decide to drop it.

Classes go by quickly, me and emily are in most classes together apart from math, with the most creepy teacher ever, he stared at my chest the whole time.
In my last class, English my phone goes off its an unknown number so I decline it but it starts ringing again so I excuse myself and answer outside,
"hello? Who is this?"
"is this Annie?"
"yeah, why? Who's this?"
"this is judes friend,John,judes in the hospital, could you come over here? Jude really needs you right now and could you get his bike, his keys are in the office"
"wait, judes in the hospital, why?"
"it's not too serious, he just needs you here I'll explain it all when you get here, can you?"
"yeah, I'm on my way"
"okay, thanks"
I immediately run to the office and get his keys within fifteen minutes I've arrived at the hospital on judes bike and i spot john from the party near the entrance.
"what the hell happened"
"when jude was in chemistry someone hit into him and some acid got in his eye, he's ok but he's gonna be temporarily blind for two days, he needs you to take care of him"
"me?"
"yeah, I volunteered but it made sense to be you since you live with him, if you don't want to i can it means you'll have to miss classes aswell"
"no ill do it, I was just wondering why, can i see him?"
"yeah, come on"
When i enter the hospital memories of visiting my brother here when he was sick came flooding back and i have a feeling I'm gonna have a breakdown While I'm here.
When we reach the elevators the doors are closing but a hand stops then and a nurse smiles up at us before wheeling in a teenage boy in a wheelchair, hes I'll aswell the way luke was, mentally disabled.
"hey" I smile at the boy while holding back tears when i catch him staring.
"hi" he barely makes out, we're going to be in this slow elevator for a few minutes so I decide to try to talk to him.
"I'm Annie, it's nice to meet you"
"I'm Liam, hi Annie" I'm in the verge of tears, but i dont want to upset Liam.
"thats a really nice name Liam"
"thanks, who's your boyfriend?"He asks while smiling warmly up at John who looks uncomfortable.
"this is john, he's not my boyfriend"
"his pain, my gain" I laugh at this i know mental illnesses are hard to deal with but I've met so many people with them who are so happy.
"I haven't tried anything with her.... Yet" john speaks up winking at me.
"you should, your really pretty" he tells me before the elevator bings and he's wheeled out.
"bye luke... I mean Liam" I say to him waving even mentioning his name had my eyes teared up but only john can see them.
"bye Annie, bye john"
"bye" john says and when the doors close he turns to me.
"are you ok?"
"yeah, I'm fine i say wiping my tears.
"just an allergy, i think" I add
"are you sure?"
"yeah" I tell him sounding more confident.

When we get to judes room, he's topless and has wires attached to his chest he also has a white bandage around his eyes, he's sitting on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands.
"I think you should go in first" john says to me.
"are you sure?"
"yeah, I've already talked to him"
"ok"

"leave me the fuck alone, morris"
"it's Annie, is that john's last name?"
"no, the doctors, come sit beside me i donk know where to look for you" he says, he sounds upset and his voice is Raspy.
"so, what happened?"
"some girl was mad because i slept with her best friend and not her so she bumped into me but I was holding a glass of acid that flew into my eyes and cheeks, she didn't mean to hit me like this though"
"that bitch! What's her name?"
"don't worry, she getting suspended or something"
"Did it burn? How are you now?"
"it burned abit but it's not gonna scar my eyes sting, are you ok to babysit me for two days?"
"yeah, it's Ok"
"ok, but you can't poison me, and i choose the food"
"fine, but nothing disgusting"
"fine"
"so, why we're you so upset when i just got here?"
"I didn't realise but one of the nurses was my uncle, i had to pay him a shit load of money so he wouldn't tell my family"
"why don't you want them knowing?"
"I don't want them to worry also i dont want them to check up on me and moneys tight for them, so I also don't want them having to pay for all this"
"can you afford it?"
"yeah, I'm loaded but they won't take any of my money"
"okay, when can you leave"
"when you sign me out"
"ok, let's go"
We get home by a cab and john agrees to drop off judes bike tonight, i make jude some pasta and help him get ready for bed, which involved helping him change boxers, very. Very. Uncomfortable.
When hes finally ready, I get ready too and when i come back into his room he's fallen asleep i take a look around and see photos of him when he was a young boy, him and his brother playing at the lake and his parents in a boat together, I'm really fucking jealous. I climb into bed beside him, something I have to do to make sure he doesn't fall out and his eyes don't worsen he wraps his arms around me in his sleep and I fall asleep in his arms almost instantly.