starting over

chapter 18

Annies POV

I woke up before jude and decided to start breakfast to make up for the nightmare he had because of me i feel so guilty i never wanted to hurt him i really care about him and it's not fair that he has to suffer i need him to be completely honest with me and that includes if he really will be ok with me staying with him and If i will be okay with it because i won't be able to if he keeps getting hurt and it's always better to get out before you get too attached, something I learnt the very hard way.
"what are you doing?" jude asks from behind as i start sizzling bacon in one pan and pancakes in another.
"making breakfast, you can get a shower or whatever before its done" I tell him.
"ok" I watch him walk away into his room and realise just how much I care about him, this is going to be hard.
Not long after I've put the food on the plate jude emerges from the bedroom wearing only a pair of boxers with his hair dripping, looking amazingly sexy.
"thanks" he says grabbing a plate of bacon and pancakes.
"no problem" I sit down at the island in my seat facing him and finally gather enough courage to start the conversation I've been dreading.
"erm i need to talk to you about something" I awkwardly tell him.
"Are you ok?"
"yeah it's erm about me signing the lease"
"yeah I'm ok with you staying here... if you are"he adds in the last bit awkwardly and looks up holding my stare for a few seconds before I break the silence which is difficult as the air just got incredibly tense.
"I'm just not sure if it would be ok because... you know, the nightmare you had last night I don't want to be stressing you out with my problems and it's not fair especially if sally does call again"
"I don't care about all that I won't have them again i guess I was just over thinking it all but i do care about you and i will do whatever I have to to protect you no matter how many times she calls even if she comes here herself"
"I do appreciate all that but I'm not comfortable doing that if it's going to hurt you"
"it won't i promise"
"are you sure?"
"yes and i couldnt give up these pancakes" he adds with a smile and a chuckle/laugh before looking up i to my eyes, he slowly leans forward into me and presses his lips against mine gently i dont even realise what I'm doing. I'm kissing him back. I immediately pull back and stare into his eyes completely shocked.
"sorry, I... Erm, i should go" I tell him and attempt to stand up and hide in my room.
"wait can't we just talk first, we both know you kissed me back"
"erm, yeah sure"
"listen, Im not gonna lie I've wanted to do that for sometime now"
"really?"
"yes ofcourse i thought you would have worked it out by now i really care about you when i saw you in that hotel room i thought you looked amazing and then when i saw you in the dress i was speechless but when you told me everything and I got to see the real you i was blown away i thought i would have sort of started to dislike you but it only made my feelings grow because i knew you had been through so much and you were still here and strong i wanted to be part of the reason you didn't fall back again and i want to be able to protect you from her i really care about you and even if you don't care about me i won't hide my feelings and i will do anything to make you feel the same"I am completely speechless by his speech i had no idea anyone cared about me so much it hit a spot i didnt know existed and i think I actually felt happy again i finally realised the main reason I wanted to stay not because of the location or the apartment or the rent or the fact I would be homeless it's because of him i care about him so much and I don't know what i would do without him, i cant help it anymore i crash my lips against his hungrily and he doesn't hold back either he lifts me from my seat and carries me into his bedroom with my legs wrapped around his waist he sets me down on his bed and starts kissing my neck before greedily ripping my top off and i run my hands down from his neck to the rim of his boxers and yank them down and throw them to the floor when he starts to slide my pyjama bottoms and panties down my legs he leans over me and plants a kiss on my forehead before reaching in his bedside locker and grabbing a condom he slides it on and enters me fast he thrusts and with every thrust we both moan in unison he starts kissing my neck again and gets lower down to my breast where he nibbles the skin and sucks a bit making me moan which made him moan.

Judes POV

I nibble and such on her breast just enough to leave a mark and she moans the most sexy noise Ive ever heard i start travelling back up and kiss her lips biting a bit aswell i pull away for a breathe and look in her eyes just as she looks into mine and that does it i cum in the condom and flop down beside her i pull her into me and lie for a while in silence before I turn to her and say.
"I guess this means I have no choice but to stay with you now" She laughs and snuggles further into me.