Annies POV
I woke with a throbbing headache and swirling stomach i look around to see jude staring at me with wide eyes i then realise we are on the couch, what the hell?
"what happened?" I remembered our fight and me getting into a cab and drinking i kinda remember coming home and just small flashes though like the drive here and flicking judes nose.
"erm.... Let's get you cleaned up first yeah?" he says getting up and heading to the cupboard where the painkillers were kept, i knew something happened otherwise he would have told me there now and teased me about it, what did I say this time? i.am.never.drinking.again.
"here" he says handing me the pills and a glass if water i take them and mutter a thank you before getting up and walking into the bedroom.
"so, what did I say?" I worryingly asked jude as he sat on the edge of my bed.
"erm... You kept going on about how you were never properly better and that... You would, leave me to stop me getting hurt" Did i really say all that? Would i leave jude to stop my parents hurting him again? If i left with him thinking badly if me would it make it easier for him? Maybe but could i live without jude? So far he's the only person who cared about me properly he knows so much about me but still not all of it, should i tell him? Could i really leave him behind? I know he would probably be better off without me but I love him so much and fir once in my life I know he lives me so maybe if we worked hard enough it would work and we could be together and he would protect me from my family.
"ans?" he asks waving a hand in my face.
"sorry, what?"
"Did you mean it, would you leave me?"
"jude, listen i am broken i wasnt wrong last night when i said I wasn't properly better and i dont think I ever will be i will always want to cut and sometimes I will and I will also sometimes want to die i live you so much but I don't want anyone i care about getting hurt so maybe if i left now before we got too attached it would be easier to move on for you?"
"I wouldn't move on because i wouldn't let you leave i love you which means I love you when you laugh and smile and steal my food but i also love you when you cry and feel pain because it all makes up you, The most amazing person i have ever met, I don't want to move on because i dont intend on ever losing you i love you, all of you and i will work my ass off to make sure you are happy and if you let me i will make you properly better again i can make you happy and that would be enough to make my life complete"
"I love you so much but I would hate myself if I hurt you i am just trying to think about this, do you see a future with me?"
"I see us graduating from college together and kissing eachother each morning before going off to work i see us teasing eachother about getting grey hairs and retiring together i see us moving to the suburbs or the country where well be happy and well have barbecues every Sunday and pizza every Saturday i dont see a future without You because you are my future" my eyes water as i realise just how much we mean to eachother.
"I love you so much ans and i could never lose you ever, we will get through this i will keep your parents away and make you happy even if we move after we graduate i would go anywhere with you"
"isn't that running away from my problems" I mumble looking down.
"come on I'm trying to create a moment here dint bring up how much if a dick i am"
"you are a pretty big dick" I chuckle.
"I know and you love me for it" he says kissing my nose then my cheek then my eye then my forehead then my other cheek then my jaw and my neck he pushes me down and kisses roughly as he grinds our bodies together i reach my hand in his pants and pump him while using my other hand to carress his hair as i tug he moans.
"fuck ans" he moans into my ear, he licks my cheek and after a bit of kissing, pumping and licking we pull away both exhausted we hold eachother all day and order a pizza at six we just talk about everything what we want out of the future apart from eachother, jude wants to travel and do something to make a difference i ofcourse want to travel aswell but maybe counselling or something too I've tried it before and it was shit i think if i gave my honest opinion about it it would improve and be able to help people properly we fight over the last bit if pizza and end up eating either end into a kiss lady and the tramp style only messier and harder because ya know.... It's a pizza slice we talk all day and then get ready for bed jude falls asleep before me and I fall asleep with his peaceful face in front of me with his legs locked around mine and our arms intwined around eachothers body
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Short StoryAnnie has not had a good life, she decides that the only way to move on is to move away, she moves from Ireland to new York city, with only the clothes and small amount of money, she moves in with a boy called jude who is curious as to what has happ...
