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chapter 14

Judes POV

"I'm sorry"
"I won't do it again"
"I didn't mean to"
"please stop"
"I know"

Shit, she's having a nightmare, Annie starts clinging to my shirt shes shaking with fear, i start to shake her and try to wake her up.
"Annie"
"Annie, please wake up, it's jude I'm here, it's only a dream it's not real, come on Annie"
She starts whimpering and i shake what i think is her shoulder,
"Annie, please wake up"
She finally wakes up and hugs me tight while she silently sobs into my chest i hold her and brush her hair behind her ear while comforting her after a few minutes she pulls away.
"sorry, we should get to bed, it's only two"
"are you sure?"
"yeah, I'll be fine, let's go"
She grabs my hand and leads me down the hall and into my room she removes my shirt and joggers and then leads me to my bed to lie me down I'm nearly asleep but i want to stay awake to talk to her for a while, i hear her changing and climbing in beside me i wrap my arms around her and pull her close.
"do you want to talk about it?"
"it was when she found out i had a boyfriend, she went mad and started messing up my room"
"what did she say?"
"she told me i was a lying mess, that I would go with anyone who cane along and she called me a whore, my dad heard it all and saw the mess i knew it upset him that I was so hurt but he didn't say anything he heard me crying a few times in the middle of the night but just walked on"
My jaw clenches when i hear what shes been through but i know she hasn't been dealing with it and she needs to talk to someone.
"Did he ever help you?"
"he used to talk to me not about it but make me laugh, but then he stopped talking and after ignoring me he started to join in"
"if they ever contact you again tell me, I will stop them ever hurting you"
She turns her head, I assume to look at me.
"I've heard that before" she says sadly.
"well I'll be abit hard to get rid of if we live together"
She laughs an airy laugh.
"I'm just saying I wouldn't be surprised if you got tired of my pills, nightmares, trust issues and possible threats from my parents"
"then get prepared for a surprise because I'm not leaving without a fight"
"thank you"
"it's ok, now take your pills and get to sleep"
"ok, night"
She says before sitting up and swallowing her pills and then laying down beside me and snuggling into my chest i stay awake and hold her for a while just enjoying the moment before drifting off to sleep.

"jude, wake up"Annie says softly in my ear.
"jude, come on it half eight"
"okay, I'm up"
She helps me out of bed and leads me into the bathroom.
"do you need a shower or can you wait just one more day?"she asks nervously.
"erm, kinda if that's ok" I say embarrassed, i dont want to force her to awkwardly wash me but I do need a wash.
"okay..." she says trailing off before lifting my shirt and taking off my joggers and boxers, she walks away for a few seconds leaving me standing in the bathroom completely naked until I hear the shower turn on she comes back and leads me over to it, the second the hot water hits my body i relax and let the water run over me i nearly forget about Annie until I hear a squirting noise and feel the cold soap being pressed to my chest from the sponge the smelll of strawberries invades my nostrils.
"is that your body wash?"
"yeah, yours is done"
"okay, I'll smell like you for the next day"
"better than your stink, turn around"
I turn around and she washes my back before my legs.
"come on out now to dry you" she says softly, i climb out of the shower and she carefully rubs the towel around my body and dresses me awkwardly.
"what do you want for breakfast?"
"whatever, you choose"
"is the pizza from last night ok?"
"yeah, the perfect breakfast" she giggles and leads me down the hallway to the kitchen i am seated in my normal seat again while she gets the pizza warmed.
"you have to go back for your appointment tomorrow"
"isn't it today?"
"no, it's tomorrow"
"fuck, this is annoying shit"
"your telling me, I have to spend the whole day and night with you"
"exactly you get the pleasure of looking after me and all i get is being lead around the apartment and fed day-old pizza"
"actually you get to relax all day while I cook and clean...and wash you" she adds in the last bit awkwardly i just laugh.
"I'm sure you enjoy washing me"
"to be honest, I was kinda disappointed, usually guys with a big ego have big cocks"
"if mine was any bigger i would choke girls when they were blowing me"she giggles again
"ok,ok let's move away from this conversation"
"ok, you a virgin?"
"what?"
"are you a virgin?"
"why does that matter?"
"I just want to know, to move away from the conversation about my cock"
"were not that far away from that conversation"
"just answer it, I'll go first no"
"fine, I'm not"
"who's the lucky guy?"
"stop being such a creep"
"fine, I'm sorry and the pizzas ready"
"how do you know?"
"I could smell it"
"I should have known you could"
We sit and eat pizza for a while before she leads me into the sitting room and turns on the TV for me it's another movie for me, the conjuring.halfway through the movie, me and ans are sitting on the sofa snuggling up with eachother i feel her hand resting on my knee and i place my hand over it and carress it with my thumb, she snuggles closer and we sit like that for the rest of the movie.
"I have to go out today, were out of food"
"what? Can't you wait another day?"
"no, I can't i need things that can't wait"
"like what?"
"things, you can come with me or stay here alone"
"I'll come... When you tell me what it is you need, is it plugs?"
"no"
"what then?"
"I need more pills, i just need to go to the pharmacy are you coming or not?"
"fine, I'll come"