Romanogers - What if... nat returned from the dead?

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Steve passes out from exhaustion before they arrive at the tower. She lands, and Bucky and her come out carrying him. Wanda, Thor, Sharon (ugh), Clint and Banner are there waiting for them. No one knew, however, that Nat was back.

It was weird. They were all resentful and she didn't know how to act, or what to say. But there wasn't time to say anything. They took him to the medical wing immediately and while the doctor was taking care of him, Natasha tried talking to them. Firstly, she went to Wanda. It took her 2 hours and a lot of crying but she forgave her. Wanda understood her motives, even though she didn't agree with them.

She talked to Clint, who was fine with it. A little hurt that she didn't call him until her fourth week in Russia, but ok with it. (he was the only one that she kept in contact with) He was always on her side, no matter what.

She didn't have the energy to talk to the others, so she went to the medical bay to see how Steve was doing. Sharon was there so she waited outside, but a few minutes later Sharon left, claiming that it was late and that she would come back to see him tomorrow. Everyone went to bed and Nat took the opportunity to sneak into his room.

He looked awful. She wished she was there to protect him. She thought: "if I was there, none of this would have happened. I wouldn't let it happen", and so, she blamed herself for it (she did it again guys!! Yay. Ik, I'm sure you are all very surprised)

She stayed with him the entire night, prohibiting herself from falling asleep.

When it was around 4am she started talking to herself, well, to him, but its not like he could hear her.

N: I'm so sorry Steve. Its all my fault. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for leaving and I'm sorry for coming back. I'm sorry for breaking you heart and for knowing that I would do it again if I had to. I'm sorry for not being able to control these damn feelings and for how it affects you. I'm so so  sorry.

S: I'm sorry too.

Nat jumps from her chair.

N: You're awake! - the happiness lasts very little, and she soon realizes he heard everything - How long have you been awake?

S: An hour or two. I thought you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you up

N: Oh – there is a pause, she doesn't know what to say and neither does him - Well I wasn't.

S: Yeah, I see that

An uncomfortable silence sets over them

N: I was worried. – she regrets saying it immediately - I mean not WOORRRIED worried, just like a normal level of worried for a friend to be about their friend

S: Is that what we are? Friends?

N: If I recall correctly, that's what you asked us to be

S: That was a long time ago. Things change

N: Yeah, I guess they do

Another uncomfortable pause. Recently they seemed to be getting really good at uncomfortable pauses.

S: Can we talk about it? I know you said you didn't want to explain yourself and that you would get out of my life and everything, but then you start talking about "these damn feelings". I just don't know what to think Nat. You are making a mess out of me

N: I don't think that's such a good idea. I just wanted to make sure you would live, I should probably go, I have a flight to catch – she lied, obviously

S: You are going back to Russia?

N: Yeah. James told you?

S: Yes. He did

N: About everything...

S: Yes

N: Oh

S: Yeah. Look, please stay. Please, I need to talk to you about this. I need to get my mind of whatever this is but I can't seem to do that if I don't even understand it. Please Nat.

N: I'm sorry. I should go.

S: No Nat. wait pl-

She left. And she was about to leave the tower when a blizzard starts, and she is back to being locked on the tower.

N: (thinking) *Damn you snow. I knew there was a reason for me to never like you. If you were alive, I would hunt you down and slowly kill you*

The morning soon came. Everyone woke up and saw Steve. Sharon called, but she couldn't come because of all the snow. The entire city was on lockdown.

N: (thinking) *I take it back. Snow you are the love of my life. If you were alive, I would marry you. Thank you, God, for making it snow*

The problem is, Steve was allowed to walk around the tower, and all the Avengers insisted on having breakfast together.

Natasha stayed the whole meal making hot chocolates, so that she wouldn't have to interact a lot. It worked for a while, but Wanda kept calling her to the table, to sit by her side. She eventually sat down where Wanda wanted, which was, coincidently, in front of Steve. (Maybe it wasn't completely a coincidence. Wanda was a big Romanogers shipper)

She avoided eye contact and left the second she was allowed to. But Steve also left, and started following her.

S: NAT- he yelled in the distance. She was practically running trough the halls – YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO EVENTUALLY TALK TO ME

S: NAT?? FINE. I'LL JUST REMOVE THIS STICHES AND BLEED HERE TO DEATH UNTIL YOU COME BACK

Nothing

S: I'M REMOVING THEM NOW

Still nothing. The thing was; Tony built a few shortcuts on the tower in secrecy, to get to his lab faster, and Steve knew them. He got in one of the secret passages, that led him straight to the hall she had just gone trough, and with another one or two pathways, he ambushed her.

N: Steve. Please. There is nothing to talk about. I have nothing to say.

S: WELL I DO - He was very mad. He had never yelled at her like that before

N: Please just let me go. I'll be out of your hair as soon as the blizzard is gone. – Yep, it was final, she hated the snow.

S: NO. I DON'T NEED YOU TO BE "OUT OF MY HAIR". I NEED ANSWERS. I NEED EXPLANATIONS

N: I don't have them, Steve. I'm so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you

S: WHAT THEN? WAS ME KISSING YOU REALLY THAT OFFENSIVE. THAT DIGUSTING FOR YOU? WAS THAT WHY YOU LEFT?

N: Don't say that Steve. You know that's not true. – She was really trying to stay calm while he was yelling at her. She wanted to leave, but there was no escaping