Born A Weapon

his daughter

SEPTEMBER 2ND 1993
(Tw: child abuse/mentions of drugs and alcohol/eating disorders)

The next morning I woke up in my dorm I had a small headache from the hangover I felt my back crack when I sat up I stretched my pained legs
i stood up and looked myself in the mirror i had lost even more weight than before my ribs where painfully present and my brain was swarming with things mother and father had yelled at me as child those words of things i wasn't allowed to  do they took over me and after the 60th time of hearing my inebriated mother yell at me that i wasn't allowed to eat anything because i would get fat i had accepted it and held it to heart but where had it got me now i was withering away slowly and i couldn't get myself to eat anything 

i sat down on my bed my gaze stuck on my scarred legs and hand they had seen everything i had gone through unlike anyone else somehow I've been able to keep my pain from everyone but i knew there would be day where everyone found out i am his daughter and id surely be banished from Hogwarts and the wizarding world as a whole 

ever since i was just a little girl i had lived with seeing the worst parts of humanity i had seen my parents and the people around me commit horrible acts and i saw my mother drift further and further away into substance abuse and insanity it hurt me seeing her passed out like that and i was so young... way to young to even know what all of this was but still i sat there with her so that she wouldn't be alone

i knew when she would eventually wake up i was done for because i hadn't given her privacy or i had moved something of hers and she would grab me by my wrists and throw me on the ground i can still feel the shiver of pain shoot through my arm when she had thrown me so hard my arm snapped

father hadn't been kind and shouted at me for being weak while sipping his whiskey like nothing happened and i can still smell the strong sent of when he blew his cigar smoke in my face saying that it would help me calm down

i felt my chest tighten as my breathing became faster and faster i felt my knees weaken as i dropped to the floor my vision blurry and my lungs squeezing to pull air inside Luna walked in and immediately rushed to my side and put my head in her lap while calming me down  she whispered in my ear and held me close i felt my breath calm down as i wrapped my arms around her and i burst out in tears as every single memory came crashing down on me like hailstones