Born A Weapon

the beginning

SEPTEMBER 1ST 1993

(child neglect/child abuse/drug addiction)

The sun rose above the high hedges and trees surrounding malfoy manor and the soft autumn wind blew my curtains open letting the sunshine slip through and hit my face waking me up

I yawned and sat up straight in bed rubbing eyes and stretching my limbs it had been a while since I got a normal nights sleep and it surprised me due to the fact I Was about to start my third year of school at Hogwarts

I got up out of my large four poster bed and walked towards my closet opening the doors with a soft creak and grabbing a black dress with little details on the sides and a heart cut out on my chest I knew father would probably be angry if I didn't dress in something he picked out for me so I listened to him and put on the dress

I walked onto my balcony and sat on the aerial silk I had hung up there with the help of Draco it had been a struggle but we got there eventually and it paid off the hardest part was convincing my father not to take it down

Malfoy manor wasn't your usual mansion it stood in a remote area away from most of the wizarding world it stood in the middle of a huge forest that stretched out for kilometres in all directions and there where no buildings in sight I had spent my whole life here as 9i was born between these walls and wasn't let out of the big metal gates surrounding unless I was accompanied by my parents or relatives I grew up only knowing these walls and the bare garden running around the manor where me and Draco played together as kids

I had been out of malfoy manor a fair few times before going to Hogwarts but it was always for a black family thing or something for my father and I was never allowed to talk to anyone without my father knowing what I was staying or someone keeping an eye on what I was doing at all times

This wasn't to protect me however but frankly this was so I wouldn't say anything about the things that where happening to me throughout my childhood

I never knew these punishments where abusive until I started Hogwarts and I heard people talking about there parents hugging and kissing them which was something I had never even thought of before and had never even known it was an option but once I knew I craved it more than anything and I started looking at my parents in a different light and over time I saw just how fucked up it all was

I was snapped out my thoughts by a cold hand on my shoulder it was father and he pulled me off the swing and pointed at my trunk before walking out again he wasn't one of many words and I was used to it

I checked my trunk if I had everything I needed and then dragged it down to the hall and the stairs towards the front door I heard the faint noise of a chainsaw coming form the basement and I shivered while quickly hobbled back up the stairs towards the living room

Mother was asleep/passed out on the couch and I didn't bother checking which one wanting to spare myself a punishment

I knew mother was in deep in certain substances but it had been that way all my life she would be sober for a few months then relapse and the sober up again and no matter how much Narcissa and redolphus tried she wouldn't stop this cycle and she refused to let anyone help her

I sat down on the armchair facing the window and curled up in the seat watching the birds swoop down to catch prey

At 10:30 Lucius and Narcissa gathered me and Draco and accompanied us to the train I couldn't get away from them quickly enough on the platform and ran to the train like it was the last chance at being free

I pulled my trunk into the train and found a compartment with Draco we put our trunks in the overhead compartment and sat down on either side of the compartment staring out the window to Lucius and Narcissa who looked like they wanted to be anywhere but here right now

After a few minutes luna walked into the compartment and hugged me tight I almost started crying when I saw her and it was such a relief to see her again after 3 months I held her tight my face buried in her shoulder

She sat down next me and the train started moving harry walked in the compartment just before the train left the station and Lucius and Narcissa where long out of sight the whole train ride was spent catching up and a lot of snogging in the train bathroom on mine and Luna's part

After 3 months of no contact we couldn't bare the thought of staying apart any longer we came back with red faces an hour later and neither Draco nor harry said anything about it but there was a new person in the compartment

Our new defence against the dark arts professor who introduced himself as Remus lupin I immediately got weird vibes and I knew he was something different then I was used to

When the train rolled into the station at Hogwarts and we got out the train me and luna walked together hand in hand and I felt my heart light up every time she smiled at me we had been together for 2 years now but every glance made me blush like crazy

The sorting ceremony was boring like always but the thing that and my attention where the two new professors

The One we had met in the train Remus lupin but he was accompanied by another man who looked...different as well his name was Sirius black which already caught my attention because that would mean he was my relative but the fact he was dressed in black baggy jeans and a queen band shirt with a leather jacket sticking out from the other teachers like a sore thumb

I knew I had to know him personally maybe even become an important figure in his life I needed to know him he was a black but also nothing like a black at all and I wanted to know everything

that night there was a welcome back party and i drank myself numb trying to forget the summer at home