i'm loving, but who could love me?

"how do you know so much?"

"how do you know so much?"
attention -joji

i don't know what it is
ill offer this

im lost
im lacking
im bored

your eyes
at the very least
are distracting

they're deep
they're careful
just shows that you care more
than you have to

when you're not okay
and your voice shakes
you fiddle
uncomfortable
maybe you'll tell a joke
but you'll never let them know

you're friendly
you're kind
you don't really have to try

at first
i idolized
now, i want to discover
what's inside

what first was simple
feels so
difficult

i wonder what your hand would feel like in mine
i wonder what my words could do
if i were allowed to use
the words i use for lovers
and replace that definition with you

you're unlike anyone i know
you're different
and i like it

but

you dont

I wonder what I could do
with these beautiful words

if only they were meant for you