i'm loving, but who could love me?

"october."

"october."
in this life -israel kamakawiwo'ole

when every day feels like waiting for you
i feel a little better knowing that you'll be here soon

i miss the way your hand feels in mine
the way you move and exist
like a dreamy memory already being made

you feel special
like a gift
when i can see you

it doesn't feel real
i think of all the bad fights
and nights spent alone
holding nothing but myself
and my cellphone

wishing and waiting
wondering and contemplating

how life would be so empty without you
and how your presence in my heart never changes
even when we're apart

i feel your sadness
and your happiness

i bask in
the moments before

these moments before
when i can look forward to seeing you

closer than farther
and sooner than later

i bask in the thought
of saying, see you soon

my love
how ive missed you

even though you are gone
i will always be with you