i'm loving, but who could love me?

"im in love with you."

"im in love with you."
female energy, part 2 -willow smith

im in love with you
but not in a sad way
in a way that feels comfortable
in a way that lets me become as free as i feel when i let it all go

it sit here
in the coexisting silence
accompanied by the birds and trees
moonlight will follow
i hope you feel touched by my words
they're not much
we all have them

but today i wondered if i could twist them poetically to please the distance
im alone now
but somehow
when you love me
in this reality

im never really alone
i feel accompanied
even when you don't seem to be here

because i see you in the sky
the sun
and the trees

i feel you in the air
and somehow i never want to leave
because everyone i miss
turns up in the reflection of the lake
their memory
and yours too

the world changes everyday
but as long as you love me
and i love you
i wouldn't have this tainted reality any other way

you make me feel strong
even when fear clings to me
i believe you
and everything you say to reassure me

you're not gone
far from it

but one day

we'll lay hand in hand

and we won't have a reason to let go
i just love you
there aren't many words or analogies

you are just that one thing

that's just what you are
and you make me feel
like i can be what i said id be

no sad poems about you will come
because you make me so happy
i coruscate
like the burning sun

you got me
even when you're not here
you make me feel so sure
you heal my wounds

and for that
i have
so much to give
in so little time

you're the one i want to spend forever with
i not only want to share my universe with you

i want to be apart of yours
i wanna know how you think
you just feel familiar
it's like im learning to love myself
with a love so strong from someone else
it's as if i don't have a choice but to look deeper into what once was shattered
and try again

this was shitty
i love you again