𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔼𝕟𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣// 𝔹𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖 𝔼𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝔽𝕒𝕟𝔽𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟

chapter 8

when the bus stopped, we grabbed all of our things and started to go the the door of the bus. i peeked out and noticed a lot of fans surrounded the bus screaming billies name with their phones pointed at us.

billies security guards walked in front of us and opened the door, i let billie walk in front of me. as soon as billie got out and said hi to fans, i stepped out of the bus and questions were being thrown at us.

"who is this?"

"billie are you dating them?"

"are you two dating?"

"who are you?"

i kept my head straight ahead and billie turned around to stop and look at me, i caught up with her and she spoke loud enough in my ear so only i can understand, "i'm sorry, you know how my fan base can get"

"it's okay love. i promise"

as soon as we enter the arena, all the yelling turned into a mumble. it was super relieving.

"god billie, that's awful. i'm sorry you go through that" marissa said from behind us.

"it's okay, i'm so used to it" billie turned around to say. she then looked back at me, "you wanna chill in the green room with me?"

"sure, do you know when you go to do soundcheck?" i ask her.

"whenever they call for me to do it"

i turned my head around and saw marissa chatting with claudia, it looks like they're besties now. i then looked at finneas who was right in front of them, he had headphones in and it looked like he was in his own world.

we then got to the green room and her security guards stood right by the door while all of us went in. marissa duh right into the snacks while me and billie plopped down on one of the couches.

"hey me and claudia are gonna go grab some food from taco bell. want anything?" he asks us while setting his bags down.

"no i'm good." i reply, setting my feet up on the table in front of me and billie and leaning back.

"i'll have five bean burritos and a baja blast" billie said.

"gah dayum" i said in a old man voice. "i could never"

"shut up, them bitches are fire. marissa u want anything?" billie nudged my arm, then turned to marissa.

"no thank you fin" marissa said, then gave him and claudia a soft smile.

they left the room with jus me, marissa and billie. i looked over at billie and caught her looking at my tattoo on my wrist. i bet she's curious as to what or who it represents. it's such a hard topic to talk about to anyone, but i think i can open up to billie about it.

"you okay?" i hear billie say, she put her hand on my thigh and it made me come out of me spacing out.

"yea. thank you" i reply, giving her a soft smile. she returned one back.

billie then turned so her back was on the arm rest and put her legs on mine. i put my hands over her legs and looked at her. "you should get some rest before your show" i tell her.

"that's what i'm about to do right now" she said, grabbing a pillow and putting it behind her head, then closing her eyes.

"i'm gonna go to the bathroom, could i take one of your guards with me so they can show me?" marissa asks.

"of course" billie replied.

"thank you" she said while exiting the room.

it was just me and billie now, the both of us chilling on the couch with our eyes closed. i then get this feeling in me that there are eyes on me, so i open my eyes to look at billie and i guessed right. she was looking at me.

"stop staring eilish, i know i'm sexy" i said with a chuckle.

"mmm not that much" she replied, smiling.

"i know you think i'm attractive, goofy. i see the way you look at me" i say, deepening my voice.

"mhm, but i know you think the same with me." she said, while sitting up slowly to turn around, so now her legs are dangling off the armrest and her head is on my thighs.

man i wanna kiss her right now

"can i ask you something?" billie asks, i look down into her beautiful ocean eyes.

"anything, beautiful." i say, now combing through her hair with my hands.

"what's that tattoo represent on your wrist?" she asks, grabbing my arm to look at it. i let her.

shit. i wanna tell her but i don't. if i do tell her she might start crying or she's gonna be sad before the show and i don't want that. should i ie or should i tell her the truth? you should tell her the truth because she's the type of person you can tell anything to.

"kai?" billie asks, pinching my chin and pointing it down towards her, forcing eye contact. "you don't have to tell me"

"my dads death year." i blurted out. "he got super drunk and was really depressed when his mom died." my voice starts to turn shaky. "he then got one of the kitchen knives, slit his own wrists." i felt a tear roll down my cheek. "he thought he had no one when he was everything to me. i'm still confused as to why he did it. his mom was his world. he truly accepted me for me. when i lost him i thought i lost myself." i started sobbing, then i put my hands on my face.

"oh my god, baby." she said, she shot up and hugged me, bracing her arms around my neck. "i'm so sorry. no one should ever have to go through that."

i pulled away from her to look at her. "i was really going through it. the only person i was living for was marissa. she helped me though a lot even though she was young. we both were." i looked at her dead in her eyes, and saw they were glossy. "your music really helped me through shit billie. you did." i gave her a soft smile.

"i'm so glad it got you through shit. you're such a beautiful soul and i'm so sorry you went through that. i wish i got to meet you sooner" she returned the smile, then leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"you're the best girl ever billie." i reply. giving her a hug.

i lowkey feel like i'm starting to rly like billie. wait, oh god i'm catching feelings big time.

billie let go of me, so now we're inches apart.

"i'm always gonna be here for you, no matter what" she said, grabbing my hand.

"same here bil, always and forever." i said.

i heard a knock on the door and steve came in. "billie, we're ready for soundcheck."

"coming" she said, wiping her tears from her eyes.

"text me when you're done" i tell her, while picking her hand up and kissing the top of it.

"i will, love" she said, she then gave me a quick hug then jogged out the door.

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