Just Friends: The Sequel.

Chapter Five.

Chapter Five. 

JUSTIN:

            When her hands went to do un-do the belt of my shorts I shook my head and stepped away from her.

            “I uh, I can’t do this.” I muttered.

            Staring at me in shock, she was breathing heavily until she gave me a dirty look. I wasn’t surprised that she got like that but I just can’t do this right now. I’m not in the right place and how in the hell am I ever going to have sex if I can’t stop thinking of her? God, Reina drives me crazy.

            “Why?” She asked.

            “I just can’t. I’m sorry.”

            Finding my t-shirt in a hurry, I clutched it in my hands and opened up the door to head back downstairs. I’m just going to find Scott and tell him that I’m going back home. I thought I was ready for parties but obviously I’m not ready for them yet either.

            My brain was still foggy from the alcohol, my feelings becoming awakened. The ones that haven’t been awakened for so long. I’ve pushed my feelings for Reina directly to the side but now they’re slowly starting to surface, everything I haven’t wanted to think about becoming discovered.

             Almost as if I thought I were dreaming, I did a double take at Reina who was by the door of the party, her eyes glued directly to me. Casey said she wasn’t going to be here but here she was, in a red lace long sleeved dress looking gorgeous beyond belief. You could practically see all of the guys gawking at her and I wanted to punch them all square in the face. I wanted to tell them all she was mine but once again I can’t do that.

            “Can’t we finish?”

            The blonde was tugging at my arm and when I turned to face her she was still in her bra, my eyes growing wide before I turned to look back at Reina. I was shirtless and her eyes were filled with tears. She didn’t understand that it wasn’t what it looked like but what use was it going after her? She already hated me so what’s the point?

            Because you still care.

            Letting out a loud sigh, I gently pushed the girl away and found Scott, telling him I was heading home without giving an explanation. I’m not going to stick around with Reina here.

            “You okay?” He asked.

            “Yeah. I’m good. Just tired.”

            “Did you…”

            “No.” I sighed again, staring down at my feet. “I couldn’t.”

            He didn’t say anything to me after that, which I was thankful for. I didn’t need a lecture or words of wisdom right now. What I needed was to go home and sit in silence to clear my head a little. That’s what I needed.

            The music of the party was fading the farther I walked away from it and when my feet hit the pavement of the sidewalk Reina was bawling her eyes out by the trash cans. It felt like my heart just broke.

            Immediately my instinct was to scoop her into my arms and hold her against my chest. I wanted those tears to stop but it was me who had caused them. I didn’t actually sleep with her, but she didn’t know that. I can’t exactly explain that to her because she thinks I hate her and I have to act like that. I wish I didn’t but it’s for my own damn good. I have to keep reminding myself that.