For What Its Worth - poems

Social Fear

4-13-15

I know the reason my face often turns beat red
it comes from inside my head my stupid brain
overthinking in shame!
I imagine things that aren't there
in public and I feel like others stare
just being around people I know terrifies me
even though they leave me be
if I think about turning red It turns me even more so
the fear follows me wherever I go
speaking makes it come upon so bad
my eyes get all sad
I shake
and hope this is a dream and I can wake
my face gets so hot I feel like I'm sunburning
and my stomach won't stop churning
I look at the floor and stumble on speaking
fear I am leaking
see these fears are in my head
and I'd like some easier ones instead
my fear is what others think
and it pushes me to the brink
insanity and not leaving my house will soon follow
and there I can wallow
alone is where there is no one
and I can cry until the tears are done