A Collection of Poems

Thinking of You

The rain hits the glass outside my window,

Alone I am inside my lightly lit bedroom,

I try to sleep but yet I still end up waking,

Wrapping a blanket around my cold shoulders,

I think of you,

Your smile,

Your laugh,

The eyes that always kept me guessing,

Looking around I know the comfort of my surroundings,

But yet I still feel naked without you near,

Sometimes, I cry myself to sleep wondering if you are still there,

If you're angry at me,

If you hate me,

If I could ever be good enough for you,

Even so, I still think of you,

I pound on the glass only to have fog linger behind,

Sometimes, I see your reflection in the mirror,

Your voice echoing off of the wooden cedar walls,

Telling me never to be afraid of the dark,

Telling me I am worth every breath I breathe,

Telling me never to be scared of my feelings,

Why does it hurt so much to not hear from you?

To not know if you're alright,

Why do I still think of you?

Maybe this is me being wrong,

Maybe this is me wanting something that could never be,

Maybe this is me wanting to jump out from under this world,

From behind me, I hear your voice whisper in my ear,

Telling me to never give in to my fear,

Turning sharply I just wisp in the emptiness of the air,

On my radio, I hear Nickelback's 'Lullaby',

The anthem of my own story,

Closing my eyes I see the rivers,

I see the mountain passes,

I see my wings beginning to emerge,

The eagle sits down there next to me,

And yet I still think of you,

Throwing the vase onto the solid oak floor I cry,

Wondering what I had done wrong,

Wondering if I will ever hear that voice,

Wondering why I can never be something to someone,

May my heart stop breaking for just one more touch?

Just one more whisper in my ear,

Just one more arm wrapped tightly around my waist,

And yet I still think of you,

May the rain sing my song,

May the rain mend my heart,

May the rain bring you back to me,

I fold my hands praying for a moment in time,

Just one moment that I may see you again,

Even as I stare out my window my mind begins to wander,

In my heart, I know of the possibilities of tomorrow,

Or of the days to come in the future,

If now is the last time I hear from you,

If now is the last time I ever see you,

If now is the last time I will ever know your name,

I pray for it never to be,

I pray for the chance of you coming back to me,

I pray for you, wanting to choose me too,

But, yet right now all I can do,

Is think of you!