Se Agapo 1: Moonlight Agape

Chapter Thirty Four

PHAILLOUS LMEUL SHAFER

No...

My face immediately frown when I caressed the left side of the bed only to find out it's vacant. Napapabuntong-hiningang napa-upo ako upang kalmahin ang pagsikip ng aking dibdib. Last night I feel fulfilled but right now, I feel empty, again.

I reached for my phone and stares at my screen saver.

“My wife...” I gently mumbled.

Kuha ko ang larawang ito noong nasa kolehiyo pa lamang siya, sa may park kung saan siya laging nakatambay, the first time I saw her. Her brown eyes were staring at the vast field, it was blank if you'll look at it for few seconds but when I got deeper, it was full of remorse, sadness, and emotions I couldn't spell. Hinahangin ang buhok niyang hanggang balikat ang sukat ngunit wala siyang pakialam.

Nevertheless, she's effortlessly beautiful at mas lalong siyang pinaganda ng panahon.

I followed her and even she scarcely smile, it didn't stop my heart from beating. Hindi siya palakaibigan, she didn't even have her own social circle at school and that made me worry. Although, she's not famous to women, men from her school tried to catch her attention and that made me want to kick some ass. Lalo pa noong makita ko kung paano siya hinalikan ni Kleyvtoun sa tapat ng pinto. I was fuming and for the first time, I felt jealousy. Fhrillizzie Kell is the second woman I treasure the most, next to my mom.

Peter was even confused on what I was doing in their university but hell, I just couldn't finish a day without seeing her. I was addicted to her.

‘Negative, sir.’

Inis kong ibinato ang cellphone ko sa bedside nang mabasa ang text ni Emma. Isa siya sa co-worker ng asawa ko pero siya ang insider ko. Marcellus, my second brother, let me borrow her for the meantime kaya hindi ligtas sa akin lahat ng nangyayari sa loob ng opisina. All the heartache and emotional breakdowns she's gone through, I know all of it.

Kasalanan ko lahat and remembering the shits I've done before, gusto kong basagin ang lahat ng mahawakan ko. I thought when I married her, even without her consent, everything will fall into places. Ready na ako sa lahat, para sa aming dalawa but then, we broke up. I broke her heart. At kahit wala akong balak na palayain siya noon,  circumstances made me.

First, her mother dislikes me so much when I was only doing my job. Zeri was my ex girlfriend but I was never committed on her, I never loved her. Ni hindi ko nga iyon ginalaw, ginamit ko lang talaga siya para sa selfish agenda ko. Hindi ko rin ginusto ang nangyari sa ama niya.

Second, I had to go back to Greece. Nawawala raw ang panganay naming si Alldrous Cassiel. Noong una'y nagtatalo pa ang isipan ko dahil bukod sa hindi naman iyon ang unang beses na nawala siya ay alam ko namang alam niya ang pinaggagagawa niya. That brother of mine have an IQ higher than Einstein, than us, but my father threatened me. I hate to do it but I was left no choice. My father is conniving, he symbolizes the evil god among the Olympians.

And third, I want to give my wife time alone. Ayoko siyang ma-pressure at baka mawala pa siya sa sarili niya kapag ibinunyag ko agad ang kasal naming dalawa. Ginawa ko lang namang sekretong pakasalan siya because I wanted to secure my place on her life. Ayokong dumating 'yung araw na biglang hindi na siya sigurado sa akin while I'm deeply smitten. It was a selfish move but I don't regret it.

“Too early to be here, Lmeul. What’s up?” Lieshim cunningly smiled.

My wife isn't in the office so I have no reason to go there as well kaya dumiretso na lang ako sa tambayan naming magkakaibigan. It's a private place we own at hindi lahat may access. This is an exclusive resto-bar for formal people. No whores and assholes allowed.