Stuff I write and find

Part 32 Enjoy <3

I am sorry that I stop texting back or I avoid you, I really don't mean to, it's just so hard to pretend to be happy all the time and the more friends I make and the more people who I talk to just makes it harder and harder to keep lying to them, so the ones who I rarely message anymore I am sorry... It means I care though... I don't want to keep lying to you because you mean so much to me but I can't face the truth to tell you it... I can talk to others they don't mean as much to me as some do, because I know in the end the ones I talk to I can guarantee they are going to leave me and then maybe just maybe I will get better in a few years and then I can talk to the ones I care about more often again.

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I have never felt so lost in a room full of people.

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Keep fighting.

You will make it.

I will make it.

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The blood tells you you're alive when you are so numb you can't feel a thing.

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"So long sleeves in the summer? It's boiling hot!"

" I get cold easy..."

It's one of the biggest lies we say everyday.

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I laugh a lot at my situation. 

That people are still believing my lies.

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We sit under the willow tree in silence, thinking about how much we love the stars. He turns and then kisses you.

"We came here to look at the stars, not to have a date."

"You don't understand you are not just the stars you are the whole galaxy to me

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