Stuff I write and find

Part 35 Enjoy <3

You're getting bad again, just when you thought you were getting better.

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Admit it you pretend it doesn't hurt because you feel like others have it worse.

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You feel like you deserve all this pain that is happening to you.

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Do you love me now?

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"Oh it's just the cat..."

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I make up things in my head alot because the reality is just cold, cruel and harsh in my head I can be happy and I can think about the future where I can have friends that care for me and a loving partner but then someone brings me back to the real world and then I realize that could never happen to a girl like me. Being loved and cared for won't happen, it's me.

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I hate knowing that my friends feel the same way I feel, that I can't help them. I try. I make sure they are happy and well, I make sure their smiles are real ones, so why can't I do that to myself.

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Normal people scare me.

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You wanna be yourself but you think you need permission.

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You can't fail if you never even tried.

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All I can say is I guess another empty bottle takes a life.

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Smoking kills,

drugs kills,

drinking kills,

everything fucking kills you in the end.

That doesn't mean you don't do it.

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I wonder if people ever notice that I am not all right, because I think people do I just think people don't care.

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How can someone so perfect feel so fucking insecure.

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I want to go blind so I don't have to see them together.

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When I eat, I feel like a failure.

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I hate people who remind me of myself.

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I am afraid no one will ever love me.

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People think I've stopped lying... but I've just gotten better at it

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