Love The Way You Lie

01

"Jacob," bulong ko sa natutulog kong kaibigan ngunit hindi pa rin ito umiimik.

"Jacob!" ulit ko at dinaganan siya upang mabigatan. Mabilis naman siyang naalimpungatan at bumangon sabay tulak sa'kin ng mahina kaya umalis ako sa pagkakadagan.

"Ang bigat mo. Is that your only way to wake me up?" inis na sabi nito at tumayo.

I smirk. "Why? Do you want me to cuddle with you? Kiss you? or—"

"Oh, please. I can't imagine. Stop it." natawa na lamang ako dahil magkasalubong pa ang dalawa nitong kilay.

"Malapit na tayo ma-late dahil napaka tagal mo bumangon mahal na prinsipe!" hindi niya na'ko pinansin at dumiretso sa banyo upang maligo.

Jacob and I are living under the same roof. Our parents approved it because we've been childhood friends for so long, so it's nothing to worry about besides I am not Jacob's type.

Who wants a flat chested girl like me? tho I'm beautiful! It's just that my boobies are small. That's what I think the reason why he is not attracted with me at all even when I tried so many times to pull a prank to make out with him. I am just trying so hard for him to fall in love with me but I am not desperate to give my body to him. I am still minor and I will give my whole self with the one I am going to spend my life with tho I am sure it will be Jacob. I can't imagine myself loving someone but him. And it will always be.

Maraming nag aakala na may relasyon kami dahil lagi kaming sabay lumalabas at pumapasok ng condo pero magkahiwalay kami ng kwarto. And Jacob is always there to clear the misunderstanding but I like the rumors. With those no one can take him away from me.

I tried so hard not to fall for him because I want to treasure our friendship. But I can't help but to fall in love dahil hindi naman napipili ang mamahalin. I am scared to death if I confess to him I know he will leave that's why I am contented with our relationship as best friends.

I am contented keeping these feelings by myself. I am contented loving and admiring him secretly.

"Let's go?" sabi niya at dumiretso sa pinto ngunit nanali akong nakatayo kaya napahinto siya at kumunot ang noo.

"May nakakalimutan ka yata?" I said as I offer my hand kaya lalong kumunot ang noo niya.

"Hey, we're not kids anymore to hold hands all the time. You're already in 4th year highschool and I am in my second year college." ani ni Jacob at humigikgik.

"Andamot mo naman. We're just friends." sabi ko sa tono na nagtatampo. I even cross my arms.

"Paano ako magkaka girlfriend niyan kung halos akala ng iba ay may relasyon tayo?" nawala ang ngiti ko sa sinabi niya.

"Kidding, I can always clear the misunderstanding." I know he's just teasing me. He's always like that but I can't help myself but to feel sad.

We're not like before. Little by little he distance himself. I don't know if it's because of a girl since he didn't have one even before and I know it's because of me. Lagi kong pinapalayo ang mga nagtatakang lumapit sa kanya.

We arrive in our university and immediately parted ways dahil magkaiba ng building ang college at highschool. Kapag maaga kami nakakarating ay hinahatid niya ako sa classroom ko but even now even if we did he's letting me to go alone.

I admit that I am immature but hindi ko rin masisi ang sarili ko dahil nakakalungkot na sasanayin ka sa isang bagay tapos bigla na lang mawawala na parang bula at biglang magbabago.

Imbis na dumiretso ako sa klase ko ay pumunta ako sa comfort place ko and that is the rooftop from the old and abandoned building here. I wanted to get some fresh air. I don't mind not going to my first class dahil homeroom lang naman.