The Evansson twins

4

January 2005
Scarlett POV

I never tought raising kids would be this hard. Ofcourse my experience is diffrent because i'm spending most of my time on set while i'd rather be with my babies at home just like the first few months, but i couldn't. The projects kept comming and i spent more and more time on set. I had to start early so my babies would still be sleeping when i left and i came home late when the two of them were already in bed so i get to spend no time with them. Chris has also e few projects but he's currently in london for filming so he can't take care of them aswell. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and this isn't the life they deserve so i've talked to chris about giving them up for adoption so they could get a family who can acually spent time with them and not two actors who are never around. This is the hardest descission we've ever made but we both think it's for the best because we're never around.

Chris POV

When scarlett told me about giving them up for adoption my heart broke because to be honest i've tought about it to and i didn't realy want it. But then we talked about it and she was roght we're never around and they deserve better so we started looking for a family to take care and adopt our perfect little twins. Maddi was the exact copy of scar the only thing she has that's mine is the deep blue color of her eyes and her hair is a vit darker blonde but all the rest is scar. And little jack is all me with scar's green eyes and blonde hair. They are our perfect mini me's.

Rhe search for a family went rather fast in a little less than a month we found a family that lives in oxford that wants to adopt our twins and next week they will be gone. The borh of us took a week of to spend the last bit of time we have with our babies. Ot was as if they knew they were getting adopted because maddy has been more clingy to acar only letting go when she was in real deep sleep and jack had more energy and didn't want to stop playing with me. I guess you can tell maddy is a mama's girl and jack is a daddy's boy.

Scarlett POV

The week ended faster than i wanted it to because i realydon't want to let them go but it's time. We were saying our goodbyes. I started with little jack telling him to look after my precious little girl and protect her from everything. I was trying so hard not to cry but when i held my little bam bam in my arms i couldn't keep it together anymore and started crying. All the memories i ha e with her started flooding my mind from her full diapers to her first words that i almost missed becaise i was at work, when i got a video from my mom that she took her first steps wich i missed because i was at work, her first injury because she fell and her head hit the coffee table while i was at work, the first time i called her 'bam bam' and she started smiling so hard so that was her new nickname, everything. "You my little girl are the light kf my life and i realy wish it didn't have to be like this but it's for the best. Just remember that i love you always and till the end of time" i whisper to her and give her one last kiss before she gets buckled in the car. I am now full out crying and sobbing in chris's arms while my babies are taking off. We go inside and the first thing that catches my ete is my little bam bam's blankie. I take it and run outside to give it to her but they're already gone. At least she has her little horse stuffed animal with her.