The Evansson twins

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Madeline POV

The soundcheck went great but my nerves got worse because there was still no scarlett to be seen. I go i to my dressing room to put on the first outfit. The one i'll be wearing before the first break.

I really like this one because the pants are cool and it's comfy to walk around in and the best part it that the crop top is also a turtleneck so my scars are hidden underneath aswell as the tatto i have on my ribs. I'll also let my hair down so that covers most on my upper arms. My make up was natural, just a bit of mascara, eyeliner and lipgloss and i was ready to go. When i got out of my dressing room the first thing i did was looking for her, but much to my dissapointment she wasn't here. I walk over to lizzie and chris to ask them but as i get closer to the stage i can hear all the people talking, there are so many. The tought scares me and makes me even more nervous and to add up she isn't here to calm me down so it all sends me over the edge.

My eyes fill with tears, my breathing starts to pick up and my whole body begins to shake. My first reflex is running away and i end up in my dressing room, my back pushed up the wall, knees pulles to my chest and my arms around them shaking uncontrolably.
After not even a minute the door swings open but my vision is to blurry to see who it is. I feel a pair of arms wrap around me and i smell the sweet and calming scent from lizzie "hey monkey listen to me. You really need to calm down so breathe with me okay. In.... And out..." she says and repeats it a few times until my breathing slows down a bit "hey you're okay, i've got you." She says and i calm down even a bit more "what happened?" She asks and i look up at her "there's just so many people out there and i don't wanna dissapoint them because thay paid to come see me. What if i'm not good enough for them or if they hate me? And why isn't she here yet, she told me she'd be here for me and she lied again." I ramble and start crying again. "Listen baby, all of these people out there are waiting for you to go on that stage and do what you live. If they didn't like you or your music they wouldn't have bought tickets to come see you. And most of all you gotta do this for yourself, you wrote this music and worked so hard to make this possible, this is your night and no one else. As for scarlett i don't know where she is i haven't heard from her all day and i've tried calling her and texting but she isn't answering. I know she should be here but don't ket her ruin your big night okay?" She says and i nod "okay now we're gonna get up and clean your face a bit because there are people waiting out there for you to shine. But don't you dare forget i'm your number one fan" she jokes and i laugh. She's right tonight is about me and my music, not about the woman who hurt me more times than she should've.

After fixing my make up a crewmember tells me it's time to get up there. I don't know where that little bit of hope came from but as i walk on the stage i look at lizzie and she shakes her head. She did it she lied and hurt me again. But tonight i won't let that stop me. "Hello eveyone, are you ready to rumble?!" I ask and they all cheer "okay that's pretty clear. How about we start with the first song i've wrote?" I ask and the cheer again. I turn and nod to the band am they start playing 'all i want'. I was nervous to start but once the first word leaves my mouth and i hear most of them singing with me i relax.

After that i sing ' driver's liscense', 'deja vu',  'happier' and 'traitor' before it's time for a small break and outfit change.  This one is a bit baggier but also my style so i really like this one.

After changing a run back up the stage "okay people are you ready to enjoy some new songs?!" I ask and they all scream "okay let's bring them on" i say and they start ' favourite crime'. After that we played ' good 4u' and 'jealousy, jealousy'. They all loved my new songs and i still had one to preform "so i take it that the new songs are approved?" I ask them and thay go crazy "i'm glad you like them, so right now i'll take another quick changing break and than i have one more new song for you guys" i say and they clap.

I change quickly and start singin 'brutal'. That seems to be one of the songs they like the most because they are going wild,screaming,yelling,jumping,dancing and whatever some of them did. "So that was my last new song. What did you think about it?" I ask and i hear them screaming and i laugh "okay so if you guys want to i can sing one more song that you guys choose" i say and they starts clapping. Once it goes quiet i hear a voice i recognize yelling 'sorry by halsey' i search for the voice in the crowd and my eyes land on a familliar blonde and i can't help but smile when i see her. I turn to the band and they start playing.

The concert ended way to quick for me, if i wanted to i could've sang some more songs but i felt myself growing a bit tired. When i got out of my dressing room after chainging back in normal clothes i was met by my family cheering and hugging me. "You did great put there" lizzie whispers as she hugs me "thanks i answer her and she gives me anither squeeze. "Okay let's go eat something and go home!" Jackson yells causing us to laugh. All of them start walking and just as i walk out the doors i hear her "you did amazing out there darling" she says and i wrap her in a hug "i didn't think you'd come" i whisper "ofcourse i did darling. I'm your biggest fan i'll always be there" she jokes and i chuckle "you're gonna have to fight lizzie to be my biggest fan" i tell her and she shrug "than so be it" she answers and i laugh. "Are you coming with us. We're getting food and we're going home, maybe you can stay tonight?" I ask her with a hint if hope in my voice . "Anything for you darling she answers and i smile. I'm happy with tonight and that flo is coming with me but i can't help but feel sad, angry and even a bit betrayed by scarlett.

She promised , but she lied.

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