"Never go near the waters, that's what my mom always says"
Stay with your family, boys are trouble, remember the stories, and never go to the ancient, love waters
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Here I was on the beach as the waters glowed letting the water run in between my toes with my arms crossed over my knees as I sat on the sand looking out in a dress that I completely did not want to be in but was forced to, I was angry, and I didn't want to cry so I held back everything within me, I came to the waters as soon as I left out of the church and my mother didn't say a word, she just walked past me as people tried to catch up with her and speak to her and she just wasn't having it, I know she wanted to be alone cause at the end of the day, death is an adjustment, everything in life is uncertainty and adjustment, we can put a label on it and say this is what god wanted, his soldier to come home, he belongs with him but we know time is a bitch and goes too fast, pain is not explainable or avoidable but why do other people who aren't in pain make it seem like that.
Besides that, a lot of people walked by and I'm glad no one said a word, I watched as Keisha and Leonardo walked out as she tried to run behind him to talk to him, but his mother pulled him away. A lot of the warriors stayed in the church and prayed over my brother's casket. I saw Mina and Ban walk out and he tried to comfort her, but she just kept declining his efforts to be there for her, I then seen Savannah, Mina's mother come by her side and put her hand on her shoulder and it looked as if she was giving her a comforting talk probably for the first time in forever or maybe she was just giving her judgment in secret who knows with that women.
It then went into the night, I was there at the beach for so long just looking and watching and hoping my sadness would fade away but every memory popped into my head and made everything sad again so decided to get up and leave but when I dusted off my dress and looked up there stood Angelic in the water with his sword on his back letting it run in between his toes with the biggest smile on his face, I thought how could he be so happy at the saddest day ever, he knew my brother when they were babies all the way up into their teenage years which no one thinks the average boy could pass but I guess the golden boy could surpass anything because he is who he is, why does everyone worship him? I hated that I adored his happiness and also was jealous of it.
"Why are you here? And why are you so fucking happy?" I said in the angriest way as tears slid down my cheeks and I wiped them as quickly as I could. He was the main reason why my brother was dead, and I tried not to blame him oh, I tried but he was the source of the lie that we had sex like I would ever give my body to a liar. I despised his happiness; I hated that I loved his smile and that I cherished his laughter, and I hated that I wanted to be close to him in a way that I would lose myself in the process.
"I love the water, this place Is where my mother conceived me at, she lets me come here to be one with the ocean. Of course, you know, we aren't supposed to be here together but we're at a far distance, so it's okay." He said like it was nothing. I hated how I thought about him in all times of the morning and night, when he drew that picture of me, I cared about how he perceived me, and I wanted to be the best version of myself. I thought about him nonstop and how he thought about me too. Were we meant to be? I don't know but he messed it up with making that rumor about us, I was so mad at him and Jasmine and everyone, I don't know who to trust, we were supposed to be best friends, he was supposed to be the same boy that got taken away from me that didn't know about periods or where the vagina was even located.
