are we still friends? (jj x femreader)

Chapter 16

Y/n's pov

After a few hours of third wheeling these two we eventually decided to get ready for the party. I borrowed something of Sarah's since I didn't want to have an awkward run in with jj yet.

I hadn't mentioned anything about jj to kie and Sarah. I would rather forget about it to be honest.

We walked down to the beach once it got dark. There were already loads of people there. I saw pope and John b. I left kie and Sarah to go and talk to them.

"Hey" pope smiled, offering me a drink.

"Hi, where's jj?" I asked, taking the drink from him.

"Not sure" he shrugged.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket. It was dead. Of course it was.

"Do you remember what that game was we all played when we were like 15?" Pope asked.

I frowned trying to remember what he was taking about.

"We we're taking about it earlier but none of us can remember what it was called."

"No idea" I shook my head. "Ask kie. She always remembers stuff like that"

John b wondered off to talk to some girl. "He seems to be taking the break up well" I laughed.

"Yeah" pope grinned. "Hey did something happen with jj? He seemed off I don't know"

"No he's probably still tired." I shrugged.

Then I noticed rafe and a couple of his friends climb out of some fancy car that probably cost more than his house. The lighting was dark but I could see his eyes stop at pope and i when he noticed us.

"Why is rafe staring at you?" Pope asked. "Why's he coming over? Y/n he's-"

"Y/n. Pope" he smirked, as he came to a stop in front of us.

"Rafe" pope nodded back, frowning at him.

"Would you excuse us" I smiled, dragging pope away.

"Why's rafe looking at you like that?" Pope shouts in a hushed whisper.

"He's always looked at me like that" I frowned.

"No. He's normally all desperate and longing now he's cocky and-" he gasped. "You didn't"

"What? Eww no. Pope" i snapped, gently pushing him away. He shot me an unconvinced frown. "No" I repeated. "I did not sleep with rafe"

Pope's eyes flickered from me to something behind my shoulder. "You what?" I heard a familiar voice ask. Ugh fuck. For an awkward run in this must be top of the list. "I'm going to go and- yeah" pope whispered awkwardly, before walking away.

I squeezed my eyes shit. Praying if I closed them hard enough I'd teleport to another place. Like world war 1. Or the near future when aliens take over earth. Y'know something better than this.

"When did you sleep with rafe?" He frowned.

"I didn't. What? I literally just said I didn't sleep with rafe"

He frowned at me, "so what did you do with rafe?"

"What? Nothing"

"Just because we had an argument doesn't mean you should sleep with someone else. what the fuck" he tried to walk past me.

I grabbed his arm, "Jj I didn't do anything with rafe"

His eyes scanned over my face, eventually relaxing. His expression softened. "Okay" he nodded. "Why haven't you been answering your phone?"

"It died" I said, handing it to him.

"whatever" he whispered, shaking his head and walking away. i stood there for a second, replaying what just happened.

"everything alright?" a voice asked. i turned around to see rafe stood there, holding a drink.

"yep" i nodded, "i do need a drink though"

"here" he said, offering me the one he was holding. i took it and swallowed a large gulp. "rough day?" he asked.

"mhm" i nodded, not taking my lips off the cup.

"y/n come and sit down" kie shouted over from a small group sat on and around a dead tree branch. "are you coming?" i asked rafe as i began making my way over there.

"definitely" he nodded, following just behind me. we both sat down next to pope.

"you okay?" pope whispered to me. i didn't reply for a moment, then gave a small nod.

"so y/n," rafe smiled, "have you got any plans for y'know the future?"

"what?" i laughed, surprised by how actually interested he sounded. "erm i guess i'd like to travel" i nodded.

"like as a job?" he frowned.

"no not really just like travel y'know, pack a bag and go places"

"sounds exactly like what jj wants" i heard pope mumble, obviously listening into our conversation. i elbowed him in his rib.

"for like the rest of your life?" rafe asked, frowning again.

"i don't know i haven't really thought about it." i shrugged. "don't pull that face, just because we're not all given the advantage of becoming some rich asshole from inheriting daddy's business."

he shrugged, "i just think that's a bit of a waste of your talents" shooting me a wink.

i laughed, shaking my head, "and what does that mean?" i asked, resting my chin on my hand.

he shrugged, taking a drink. "i just think you're to smart to spend you life walking around for no apparent reason"

"oh yeah, because spending it sat behind a desk, making 6 figures which pay other people to do all the work makes the world so much better" i said sarcastically.

"it's 7 figures" he grinned over at me.

"of course it is" i laughed again, taking another drink. it was only then that i noticed jj had sat down across from the circle, talking to some short blonde girl. he glanced over at rafe and i. his attention was broken by the blonde girl placing her hand on his. he didn't move it away. my heart dropped.

i got up and sat down on rafe's lap. "hello" he laughed, his cheeks blushing a little red.

"sorry it was getting-"

"don't apologise" he smirked, placing an arm around my waist and his other hand on my thigh. i glanced over my shoulder, seeing jj glaring over at us, his jaw tense and his hands formed into fists.

"i'm going to get another drink" i announced to rafe, before getting up.

i poured my drink and before i could go back i bumped into jj. "y/n can we just forget about this stupid argument it's-"

"yep" i nodded calmly, avoiding his eyes. "actually i think we should forget all of this"

"what?" he whispered.

"we gave it a go and it turns out it didn't work, we should just go back to being friends. this," i gestured between us, "this shouldn't have even happened"

"y/n, it was just an argument" he whispered, "people that are going out have argument."

"well maybe i don't want to be one of those people. jj it's not going to work, and if we don't admit that now it's going to make it impossible to go back to being friends" i finally admitted to myself.

he shook his head, "no, y/n you're not giving it a chance"

"maybe" i nodded, "but i'm not willing to risk it. i'll see you around" i walked past him and back to the others, before he could say anything else because even though i knew we weren't going to work, i also knew that he could've easily convinced me to kid myself a little longer.

the rest of the night was a blur after that, but somehow i ended up in my own bed back at the house.