are we still friends? (jj x femreader)

Chapter 18

Y/N's pov

It had been a few days since jj and I "broke up" or whatever it was. Kie had been seeing Sarah almost everyday and pope had been sleeping on the couch since he had an argument with his dad.

John b seemed like he was over Sarah now and spent most of his days surfing.

Pope and I were sat on the sofa when jj lay down across both of us. "I'm bored" he announced.

"Boat?" Pope suggested, pushing jj's legs off him. We got up and jj lifted me over his shoulder for no apparent reason. "What are you doing?" I laughed. I couldn't help but focus on his hands on my leg. Dangerously high up. I missed his hands on me.

He carried me to the dock, "have you got your phone on you?" He asked.

"No it in my room," I shook my head, "why?"

Before he could answer I felt him drop me in the water. When I resurfaced he and pope were sat in the boat. I climbed on, wringing my hair out. "Dick" I mumbled, flicking water at him. He grinned up at me, trying to hide how his eyes were stuck to where my clothes had become see through and had stuck to my skin.

I pulled my shirt off over my head since it was to cold to keep it on, revealing the black bikini top I was wearing underneath. I heard jj gently push pope and whisper "dude" in a jealous sort of way.

I sat down opposite pope while jj began to drive away, occasionally glancing over his shoulder at me. God he was pretty. I smiled to myself, trying to hide it by resting my chin on my hand but I'm pretty sure pope noticed.

The boat came to a stop and pope sat with his feet in the water on the side of the boat. Jj lay across the front, looking up at the sky. I leaned back on my hands, admiring how the sun made his skin glow.

His eyes eventually fell in my direction, admiring me admire him. His mouth twitched into a gentle smile but his eyes remained sort of sad. I swallowed the lump in my throat and lay down on my front, beginning to roll a joint between my fingers.

I took a long puff, before handing it to pope. I rolled over, pressing my back against the cold surface of the boat. Unable to think of anything other than when Jj held me against the very same spot. How the warmth of the sun felt so similar to the warmth and comfort i once found on his lips.

Before I knew it, it was an hour or two later. A cool breeze had began to run through the waves, forcing a shiver down my spine. Jj frowned over at me, "we should start heading back" he said, pulling off his shirt and handing it to me.

"I'm cold too" pope mumbled sarcastically.

Jj ignored him and began to turn the boat around. I pulled on his shirt, unable to tear my eyes away from his arms and how his hands gripped so tightly onto the controls.

Pope nudged me, "stop staring" he whispered. I shot him a look to tell him to shut up. Not that i imagine it worked one bit.

Anyway, it wasn't long before we arrived back at the house. The sun had begun to set and it was even colder. "Want to watch a movie or something?" I asked, sitting down in the sofa and wrapping a blanket around my shoulders.

"I should be going back home, I've stayed here for long enough" pope said, picking up his phone from the table and leaving.

Jj and I shared an awkward smile before he sat down beside me, "what kind of movie?" He asked, picking up the remote.

"You pick, nothing sad or romantic" I said, laying my head on his shoulder. He didn't move for a second and then he placed his hand on my left hip. I heard a small gasp escape my lips. "You okay?" He whispered. "Mhm" I nodded.

He put on a horror movie about some girl who gets possessed by here dead twin and ends up killing her whole family. I barely paid attention through, painfully focused on jj's hand on my hip. 

I jump scare came and jj jumped slightly, squeezing his hand and pressing his cheek to my head. Listening to his heavy breathing against my skin. "Shit" he laughed. "Sorry" he released his hand from me.

I looked up at him, his heart beating quicker than usual and his breathing heavy. His eyes struggled to choose between mine or my lips. "Are you scared?" He whispered. "I'm not really paying attention to it" I admitted, moving my lips closer to his. "Why not?" I didn't answer, instead I pressed my lips against his. He returned the kiss almost immediately, pulling me up against him. My hands slid to his shoulders, pulling him against me, deepening the kiss. His hands moved to my waist. God I'd missed this.

He stopped. Why did he stop? "Y/n" I whispered, shaking his head "y/n I can't" he pushed me gently off him onto the couch, getting up and going into his room.

I didn't move. What just happened? For Fuck sake I'm such an idiot. I switched off the tv and went into my bedroom. "Shit" I whispered, laying down on my bed.

I lay there for a while, staring at the ceiling. Replaying what just happened over and over and over again in my mind.

Eventually I had enough. I got up and walked to jj's room. Knocking on the door. He answered almost immediately. "Hi" he whispered.

"Hi" i paused. "Can I talk to you?"

He nodded, stepping to the side. "I'm sorry about" he paused, "it's just I-"

"I made a mistake" i interrupted, "with you. With us. I erm- I was wrong. I want to be with you. I want to fight with you and then make up and probably fight again as long as it's with you." I began to feel my eyes sting as I was hit by the fear that he was not saying anything. "Jj" i whisper, stepping towards him, "I'm in love with you" placing a hand on his cheek, looking into his eyes.

Then he kissed me. One of those kisses where you forget where you are and you blend into each other. He wrapped his arms around my waist lifting my onto his waist and laying me down on his bed.

"Fuck I've missed this" he groaned against my neck, his lips attacking my skin. I could feel every bit of tension, every bit of annoyance seep away with every touch. My fingertips grazed the back of his neck, travelling down over his shoulders to his arms. His hands tightened their grip on my waist. He looked up at me, taking in every feature, every angle of my face.

"You're so pretty" he whispered, slowly making his way down my stomach. I felt his breathing against my skin, as he began to undo my shorts. I tilted my head back, closing my eyes, fixating on his hands.

His mouth kissed my knee, lifting it onto his shoulder. I could feel his hands gripping both of my hips as he moved down my thighs.

I let out a sharp gasp when he buried his tongue gently against me, pulling my hips up as to gain access to every possible nerve. "You taste so fucking good" he whispered, pushing his fingers inside me as his tongue made small circles on my clit.

My hands were holding tightly onto the blanket either side of me, trying to hold back my high. "Fuck" I moaned, arching my back as heat began to spread throughout my body.

His grip tightened again, pushing his fingers deep inside me and holding them there while his tongue worked around.

I threw my head back, holding my hand against my mouth as to not be to loud, letting my orgasm take over my body.

My ears were ringing and my legs left weak. Jj lifted his mouth, pulling my underwear back over my legs. He slid his arm under my waist and pulled me over slightly so I was laying half on top of him. Moving my hair behind my ear, he placed a kiss on my forehead.

I closed my eyes, pressing my cheek to his chest and falling asleep in his arms.