are we still friends? (jj x femreader)

Chapter 17

Y/N's pov

i woke up early with a huge headache, rolling over to find kie laying beside me, splayed out taking up most of the bed. i climbed over her and out of bed. i tiptoed out of my room, carefully closing the door behind me as to not wake anyone.

i walked into the kitchen, for a moment i forgot what had happened last night and walked past them to get a glass of water. my eyes widened when i remembered, silently mouthing "fuck" to myself.

"morning" pope said, his eyes glancing quickly from me to the shirt i had slept in. i looked down at it. i didn't recognise it. i checked what i was wearing underneath. underwear. okay. it was okay. underwear was still on.

"morning" i replied, noticing how jj's eyes were fixed to the floor, no doubt pretending i wasn't here. not that i blamed him. i gave pope an awkward smile before walking back to my room, closing the door possibly a little to hard, since it woke kie as it shut. "shhhhhh" she hissed, pulling the duvet over her head.

"kie, who's shirt is this?" i whispered, pulling the duvet off her.

"ughhhhhhh, i don't know, i need some toast" she groaned.

"i'll go and buy some bread" i said, reaching for my phone.

"thank you" she grinned, keeping her eyes closed and pulling the duvet back over her head. I sighed, pulling on some shorts.

When I left my room again it was obvious that I had interrupted pope and jj. "Hey" pope nodded again awkwardly.

"Hi" I paused "I'm going to get some food, do you want anything?"

"No we're okay" pope shook his head. Jj didn't say anything. His eyes were glued to the table, his arms folded over his chest. "Okay" I nodded, my eyes dropping to the floor.

When I returned with a plastic bag, carrying bread and a few others things, kie had moved to the sofa. "Finally" she groaned.

I looked around for a moment. "Where's pope and jj?" I asked, while making some toast.

"They went surfing a think, you just missed them" she said, looking through the tv channels. "Why did Jj look so-" she paused, "miserable. Did something happen?"

I didn't answer. I didn't know if I could bring myself to say it. Maybe I just didn't want to. "No" i shook my head taking a deep breath "yes, we erm, we aren't y'know, Anymore"

I sat down beside her on the sofa, handing her a plate. "What?" She asked, sitting up properly "why?"

"We were stupid to think it'd work. It was just going to end up ruining our friendship" I shrugged.

"And it hasn't already?" She frowned.

"No idea" I shook my head.

She sat there with her mouth slightly open almost in shock. "Y/n-"

"Kie it's not a big deal" I interrupted "let's just watch some tv" I said, pulling my knees to my chin and watching the screen.

We stayed in silence for a while, then there was a knock at the door. I pushed myself up and went to answer it. When I opened the door, rafe was stood in the door way. "Hey" he grinned when he saw me.

"Hi?" I said, frowning slightly with confusion as to why he was here.

"I came to get my shirt back" he said, scratching the back of his neck. "And to see if you wanted to hang out"

"Oh hang I'll just change then," I said, realising it was his T-shirt I was still wearing. "You can wait in here"

"So do I want to know how I managed to steal your shirt last night?" I asked, leaving my bedroom door slightly ajar so I could still be heard.

"You decided to go swimming in the middle of the night so I gave you that so you didn't freeze to death after." I could here the smirk in his voice without even being in the same room as him.

"Oh well thanks" I smiled politely, handing him back his shirt, having changed into an plain black T-shirt that fell mid way down my thigh. I noticed his eyes fall to the bottom of the skirt, his eyebrows raising slightly.

Just then jj walked in through the door. He stopped when he saw rafe and I, his eyes swapping between us before opening the fridge.

"So did you wanna hang out? We could go see a movie or something?" Rafe asked, ignoring Jj.

"Oh I'm really busy today" i said quickly. Maybe a little to quickly.

"Yeah, well see you around then" he nodded, looking a little disappointed.

"Bye rafe" Jj grinned sarcastically, not removing his eyes from whatever we had in the fridge.

Rafe rolled his eyes at him and left.

I sat back down beside kie, trying to pretend it wasn't incredibly uncomfortable. Kie had her eyes fixed to the tv as if she was terrified to take them off.

"Looking very busy routledge" Jj nodded sitting down in an arm chair.

My eyes met his. I watched as he tilted his head back slightly, taking a drink from the bottle he'd just got. He eyes stayed fixed to mine.

I forced my eyes away from him, getting to my feet. "Where are you going?" Kie asked.

"I need some air" I nodded, walking away from them. I walked to a hammock that was hung in our garden. I used to lay here all the time when I was younger, watching as the sun set or as the boats rolled over the waves.

The hammock hadn't been used in so long that I was scared to sit on it. Instead I sat on the ground just in front of it, looking out at the view.

"Hey" someone said from behind me. I could tell immediately who it was. I didn't turn to look at him or even acknowledge him as he sat down beside me.

"Everything okay?" He asked.

"Mhm" I nodded, "you?"

"Mhm" he nodded back. "Y/n i-" he paused "i wanted to tell you that I-"

"What do you want to do when you're older?" I asked, thinking about what pope had said about our idea sounding the same.

"Erm i guess I want to travel, I'm going to surf in every continent one day" he nodded, proudly.

"You're going to surf in like Antartica?" I asked, letting my lips curve into a small smile.

"Yep I'll probably do that one last tho that way if I die I'd still complete it" he grinned.

"Morbid. how's anyone going to know you did complete it tho?"

"You aren't coming with me?" He grinned, nudging my shoulder.

"Obviously, but that won't matter if we both die" I laughed.

"Then I guess no one will even know. Unless we get frozen and in the future they find us and bring us back to life" he laughed, tilting his head back, his eyes glancing at me.

"Sounds like a plan" I nodded, stretching my legs out in front of me. His eyes remained fixed on me.

"Y/n" he whispered. I turned back letting my eyes meet his. "Yes"

"We're going back to being friends but I need you to know," he paused, looking down at the floor, "I'm in love with you. And I've been in love with you ever since I met you and I do have every intention of staying in love with you" he forced his eyes back up to mine, "and I'm not going to bring it up again unless you decide exactly what you want"

"Jj" I whispered, fighting every urge to kiss him, hug him, tell him I loved him too. But I didn't.

After a few seconds of silence he nodded, putting on a fake smile. He sat up, and placed his hand on the side of my face, pressing his lips against mine. Gently. He felt warm. Comfortable. Part of me wanted to wrap my arms around his neck and exist in that kiss for the rest of time.

Instead I sat there, watching as he stood up and walked back to the house.