I've been working back to back for a week now with no break. I feel so stressed and depressed right now that I don't know what to do and no one can get me out of this one.
I got everything I needed done. I currently have no more work to do and I turned in ms. Matrix assignments. I've just been studying more to keep myself focused so I won't fall of track again.
I feel like I should stop working myself but they say hard work brings success and that's exactly what I want. I want to say I worked hard for everything I have with only the help of myself.
I've been taught that education is key and I believe it's true because there is no other way for me to get where I wanna be. Others took different routes to be where they wanted to be but it's different for me.
Everyone has different paths and has to do different things to follow it and make it to the end. I just pray all this work is for something rather than nothing.
Hearing a ding I quickly pick up my phone. A small smile formed on my face seeing it's a text from Saturn. I haven't spoke to her or anyone else in a while due to me being busy.
Opening the text thread a frown instantly formed on my face.
Saturnalia🧠
- Are y'all still together?
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I take time to inhale then exhale before I text her back a NO. I'm so done with him and I don't want him around me anymore because I can't deal with this. I don't understand why people are just so okay with hurting people. Like what the fuck did I do?
I break into a cry instantly covering my mouth.
Shaking my head I uncover my mouth sucking up my tears as I began dialing France number. It rang for a while then he answered and I gave him no time to talk.
"I'm so happy France," I smile small, "I'm genuinely so happy that you turned out to be what I didn't want so now you can suck your own fucking dick because that's what the fuck you are," I say but not quite finished yet.
"Yo' what the fuck is you talking about ale--You can hoe around all you want France because I'm done with you." I cut him off.
"We are DONE! so do not contact me anymore France, And if you do I promise you that you will regret it!"
And with that I end the call and quickly block him so he can't get through to me. I'm so serious right now, I don't wanna see him ever again. I don't even want to communicate with him ever.
Hearing another ding I pick up my phone seeing a notification now from Instagram. I open it seeing someone from the school shared a clip of a party.
"What the fuck?" I mutter, I don't know how they got my number but this party looks lit, I'm exhausted and I need some excitement so I'm going.
