One Chicago + Swat Imagines

Saving him - Connor Rhodes - Chicago Med

"Hey! I don't think he's all that in love with me" I laughed

"He put a ring on it Y/N. That's commitment" Natalie as she topped up her coffee

"I guess your right" I said admiring my ring

Connor and I had fell in love 6 years ago when o first came to Med as the head of the ED. Connor then proposed to me 4 months ago.

"Dr. Y/L/N!" A nurse yelled

"Your needed in trauma 6!" She yelled as I ran after her

I picked up a pair of blue gloves on the way and slipped them on before opening the curtain. I walked in to see Connor lying on the bed

"Will? What the hell happened?!" I yelled as I ran over to Connor

"He just collapsed during a surgery" Will explained

I then looked at Connor who was bleeding from his head

"He must have hit his head, I want him up for a CT now! Move people!" I yelled

Connor was rushed up for a head CT and after an hour I walked into his hospital room to see him changing back into his scrubs

"What are you doing?" I asked

"Oh please I'm just dehydrated, I'll be fine love" Connor explained

"Sit down con" I said as I sat in the chair next to his bed

"Okay?" Connor said as he sat down

"When you collapsed, you hit your head. You weren't responding so I was scared you were bleeding from your brain so I booked you in for a head CT" I explained looking over his chart

"And I'm guessing everything came back clean" Connor said

"We found a large tumour growing on the left side of your brain" I said unable to look at him

"But it's operable right?" Connor asked

"I spoke to Dr.Abrams, it's.." I said as I began to tear up

"Love?" Connor said

"Unlikely your going to survive this con" I sobbed

Connor began to laugh hysterically

"Connor" I snapped

"Everything's operable, I have connections, I'll bring them in" He laughed

"Do you not think I thought about that?!" I yelled

"What?" Connor asked

"I sent them a copy Connor, they said the same thing. No one is offering you treatment! Your dying Connor" I yelled

"I'm not, I can't be! I'm spending the rest of my life with you Y/N! Remember?" Connor yelled

"I know baby, I'm going to make you as comfortable as possible, I promise" I sobbed

"How long?" Connor asked

"2 months at the most" I sobbed

Connor looked up in disbelief

"I'm really sorry" I sobbed as Connor wrapped his arms around me

"It's not your fault, it's far from it" Connor sobbed as he hugged you tighter

3 weeks went by and Connor was deteriorating by the day. He was so skinny and his bones were visible through his pale skin. He had no life left in him but there was one thing he wanted to do before he died.

"Do you Connor Rhodes take Y/N Y/L/N to be your lawfully wedded wife for as long as you shall live?" The priest asked

"I do" Connor said breathless

"And do you Y/N Y/L/N take Connor Rhodes to be your lawfully wedded Husband for as long as you shall live?" The priest asked

"Of course I do" I smiled

"By the power vested in me I now pronounce you Husband and Wife! You may kiss the bride!" The priest smiled

I then leant down and kissed Connor. He looked up and smiled. As the night went on I could see that Connor had no life left in him. I walked over to his bed and sat on the edge

"Well...Hello...Mrs Rhodes" Connor said trying to catch his breath

I looked at him and smiled as I took his hand in mine

"I'm going to move you to a side room" I explained as my eyes began to water

"I'm sorry we had to end like this" Connor said weakly

"You don't have anything to be sorry for" I smiled

An hour later Connor had been moved into the side room and I hadn't left his side, I knew it was his final moments. I crawled into bed next to him and began to play with his hair.

"You know how much I love you? Your the best thing that's ever happened to me Connor Rhodes" I smiled

"I love...Love you Y/N Rhodes" Connor said as his breathing began to get slower

"I love you more than you'll ever know Connor Rhodes" I smiled

Connors eyes began to close and his grip around my hand began to loosen. His chest then stopped rising and falling. He was gone, Connor was gone. I sobbed into his chest until I worked up the courage to get up. I paged everyone to the front of the hospital.

"Y/N? What's going on?" Maggie asked

"Hey, how's Connor doing?" Natalie asked

"That's why I wanted you all here" I gulped

"Uhm Connor passed away 20 minutes ago" I sobbed

The ED fell silent, some with tears in their eyes, some comforting people who were unable to go through this alone. I was stood at the front,alone. At least that's what it felt like without Connor. He brought me back to life but as fate would have it, I was the one helping him end his.

My love for medicine died with him that night, I left the ED that following morning. I always feel like it's necessary to say I tried my hardest to save him but in the end it was just knowing him that saved me.