Buried Feelings.

6. Alyssa

I open the front door slowly trying not to make too much noise. It was still early in the morning when I left Jason's place. All I kept thinking about while lying in his bed when I woke up this morning was what Jessica had said at the club. She was right I can't let anything more come of this thing between Jason and I. I needed to calm it a little so I got up and got dressed and wrote him a note. I'm now at my house trying not to wake anyone. I shut the door slowly behind me and run up to my room. Luck was finally on my side today... No one was up.

Shutting my bedroom door I place my bag on the floor by my closet and kick off my shoes. How I wear those heels every day I don't know. I stalk over to my bed and fall back on it with a loud sigh rolling over and falling into a slumber.

"Alyssa are you in there?" I slowly open my eyes when I hear My Mums voice from behind my door. I let out a groan and slowly sit up looking down at myself I get dressed into something more comfy like a long purple jumper with white pair of shorts that had juicy written on the bum "Alyssa darling"

I throw the door open and look at My Mum standing there with her arms across her chest "Hello to you too Mother"

"Where did you stay last night Missy?" Mum asks walking pass me and into my room "I waited up for hours"

"I told you not too" Was my only defence I had "But if you must know I was with a friend"

"You're always with a friend Alyssa... Why can't you ever just be home"

"Mum I don't want to talk about this now?" I roll my eyes leaning against my wall.

"Anyway Sweetie get changed and be ready in an hour we're going out for dinner" She states.

I push myself off the wall and unfold my arms "But I have plans with Jessica tonight, can't ya'll just go without me tonight?"

"We do a lot without you, so I think you can blow off this thing you and Jessica are doing and attend a dinner with your family tonight"

"And if I refuse?"

"Then you will be grounded"

"I'm 18 soon Mother. You can't ground me" She eyed me carefully and I stared back at her trying to test how much further she'll go.

"Your coming to dinner with us Alyssa and that's final" And with that she stomps out my room. I shriek in frustration slamming my bedroom door and flopping down on my bed.

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After texting Jessica that I had to cancel for family plans she rang me laughing and I told her about the kind of argument I had with my Mum. She laughed some more then we ended the call. I met Mum, Arista and Bradley at the restaurant in silence. The lady at the front accompanied us to our table, but it turned out it wasn't just a family dinner oh no... There were more people sitting at the table. Scottie being one of them.

"Why are they here?" I ask crossing one leg over the other as we wait for our dinner to be served. We were in the famous Italian restaurant.

"Don't be rude Alyssa... They heard about your dad and reached out to us. It was kind of them to invite us out" Mother replied trying to catch my eye, but I dodge her. She lied to me. She knew if I knew about this ambush I would have skipped out and not turned up. Damn it mother for trying too hard.

"We are very sorry to hear about your dad girls and Abigail we are very sorry we weren't there" Maggie Scott's mother said rubbing My Mums arm up and down.

"Well I'm just glad Antony's organs saved your son" My ears perked up at that comment. I shuffled in my seat and turned to my mum.

"What do you mean Dads organs helped Robert?" I question. Mum looked to me and smiled "Mum"

"Robert was dying, his left kidney was failing and since your dad died they found a match"

"So that's why we're here on this fancy dinner because they feel grateful that dad saved their son, but yet his not here to take the credit" I shake my head not believing this. How could Mother let this happen? Why would she even want to be in touch with the people who have a piece of my dad attached to their family?

"Alyssa we understand this might be hard and a little of a shock, but we were in contact before Antony died and we were sorry we couldn't make it to the funeral" Maggie tries to assure me.

I glare at her not believing this whole night was happening. I pushed my chair back hearing the legs scrap across the floor "Then I'm sure you'll understand that I have to go before this night gets a whole lot worse" I stand up slinging my bag onto my shoulder.

"Alyssa you sit down right now young lady. Our food will be here in any minute"

"Maggie understands why I need to leave, you should too mother" I give her a small smirk and turn around.

"Kitty..." I stop for a moment hearing Arista call me by my old nickname that she gave me when I was younger. She hadn't call me it for years "please just eat with us okay. We understand that it's all crazy, but it's a lovely meal" I finally come out of my daze and shake my head at her even though my back is still to her.

"I have a ride coming for me... I'll see you tomorrow" I then walk pass a few tables and out the restaurant pulling my phone put an dialling a familiar number.

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Are they actually kidding me... Getting in contact with the family who have a piece of my dad. What is wrong with them. Am I the only one sane in the family. My Mum and sister are mad if they even think I'm gonna get friendly with the Knightly family.

I'm now sitting out by the pool at Jason's place. My legs up at my chest. I wrap my arms around my legs and let out a loud sigh. How could my world turn upside down so quickly. How could the one person I want most not be there to help me? I need my dad, but his not here to be needed and that sucks.

"There you are Princess?" Jason's voice echoed throughout the room.

Jason picked me up from outside the restaurant. He didn't ask no questions which I was grateful for. He took me back to his place. We got inside and he showed me to his room again, but when he went to grab me some of his sisters clothes that she left I wandered around for a bit until I found the inside pool. I was amazed that he has two of them, but it was warmer in here instead of being outside.

"Here I am" I lean up stretching out my legs so my feet dipped into the water. I looked up at Jason and gave him the best fake smile I could muster up "Fancy going for a swim with me Green Eyes?" I stand up and pull my dress over my head and threw it to the floor so I was standing there in my underwear.

"But you don't have a swim suit?"

"Who said anything about swim suits?" I give him a cheeky wink and undo my bra throwing that to the floor I dive into the pool and come back up I move my hair out of my eyes and smile at Jason throwing him my now very wet girl boxers I had on "Come on Green Eyes jump in"

Jason smile back taking off his top and jeans he ran and jumped into the pool. I laughed when he splashed me and swam over to him "Now the boxers Mr" He leaned in and kissed me lightly by my mouth as he took of his boxers and placed them on the ledge "Ever had sex in this pool?" He shook his head "Do you wanna?" I ask seeing him slightly nod leaning into kiss me.

After about an hour in the pool Jason and I both got out and wrapped towels around ourselves when my phone buzzed. I answered on the second ring while Jason went inside "Nah it's fine I'm going to stay at Jason's place" I tell Jessica as I walk around the pool for the third time since being on the phone with her "Yeah I know Jess... I'll be there of course. Yeah tomorrow is okay" I see Jason walk out of the double doors with a plush white dressing gown in his hand "Okay well I have to go Jess, but I'll see you tomorrow. Okay text me. Loves you too. Bye" I press the end button on the screen of my phone and place it on the lounge chair by the pool.

"For you Princess" Jason handed me the dressing gown, so I let the towel I had on fall to the ground and put the gown on feeling warm and snug "I put a fire on to warm you some" Jason slides his hand down my warm and entwines our fingers so I followed him inside. I'm not liking the feeling I get when I'm close to him. I shouldn't be able to feel anything. God damn it. I think Jessica could be right. Maybe this isn't a good idea, but tuff if that's true.