Buried Feelings.

23. Alyssa

'You've reached Scottie; unfortunately I can't come to the phone right now so leave a message after the tone' Beep.

That is the 10th time I've tried calling Scottie and it seems he doesn't want to talk to me which is fine I did kind of reject him tonight. It's my birthday evening, but yet I'm spending it alone. Jessica isn't answering my calls either which is weird because she said she was coming over after she went to that party I declined to go to. I guess she forgot or something.

So I jump off my bed and grab my white jean jacket and slip on my wedged heels I wore to bowling tonight. I slip my phone into my pocket and grab my car keys. Yep my Mum's parents sent me over a car for my 18th birthday. They never do come and see me they send expensive gifts instead; not that I'm complaining.

Soon after leaving my house I pull into the once familiar gates that the guard had opened once seeing me. I smile to him and drive further parking behind his car. I take a deep breath and check myself in the mirror once more before climbing out of my car and heading up to his front door. I leaned up and pressed the bell button hearing it ring twice from inside.

I started to debate whether I should hurry and get back into my car and forget that I ever came. I go to turn around when the doors opened stopping me. I turn back to the door to see Rebecca standing there in a long purple jumper with black shorts.

Damn it Alyssa... You should have known she'd be here.

I roll my eyes at my inner thoughts and push them aside when I see Rebecca smile at me putting her hands in her back pockets "Alyssa right?" I just nod putting my car keys in my jacket pocket "Jason's in his room. You know where that is right?" I nod again as she stepped to the side and let me in "Go on up" I thank her as I hear her close the door. I head up to Jason's room.

I step to the top of the stairs and take a deep breath before looking down the hall. What was I going to say to him? I've been a right bitch since the pregnancy scare. I've blown him off. I hadn't answered back to his phone calls nor have I been in contact with him and after seeing him that time at college I haven't been a very nice friend. I walk down the hall and stop outside his bedroom door.

Ignoring my thoughts that were screaming at me I reach my fist out and knock on his bedroom door three times before waiting for an answer. I rocked back and forth on my heels tapping my thighs when the door swung open to reveal a very shirtless Jason.

Damn it Jason why do you have to look so hot!

My mouth hung open a little as I slip my hands in my pockets. Jason looked at me and a smile formed on his lips. The lips I must admit that I've missed. When I'm with him I feel something different. I feel like I can be myself whether that's happy or sad or even angry. That's why I think I had to get away from him because if I feel it makes me weak and I don't want to be weak. I need to prove that I can be strong for everyone. I need to be strong for me too.

"Hey Princess" He says stepping forwards so he was just a step away from me "I didn't know you were coming"

"I didn't plan to I just...I just found my way here I'm sorry" I babble bowing my head to look at my wedged heels.

I should have known he wouldn't want to see me. He might be smiling at me, but he probably wants me to leave. Alyssa just turn away and slowly walk away I'm sure he won't stop you, but I don't I just stand there looking anywhere, but his face.

"Don't apologize Princess I'm not mad at you" He states stepping to the side "Surprised you came on your birthday though" I walked pass him and into his room hearing him shut the door behind himself "Happy birthday Allie"