Buried Feelings.

9. Scottie

I watched her run down the side walk literally heading for my house. I needed to get to her. I needed to make this right before I lose her completely. I mean before she runs. I run around my car and jump into the driver's seat put my key into the ignition an head to my place. By the time I park up in the drive I see Alyssa run around the house to the side so I run after her to see her climb the spiral staircase to her room. I guess she doesn't want to see her Mum yet. Dinner was in a few hours and I had to try and convince her that I was sorry. That I didn't mean to kiss her catching her off guard.

I get to her room to see her grabbing her bag. She didn't really have time to unpack before I took her out to lunch so she only had to take her bag from the bed.

"Alyssa" I breathe out her name catching her attention. She looked at me with an emotionless expression aching my heart even more. How do I tell this girl that I love her and have for a very long time now?. How do I tell her that I've loved her since we were 12?

"I have to go" She states again breaking me out of my thoughts. I could see myself losing her before I even had her. She grabbed her sunglasses and hat from the bedside cabinet "I can't... I can't do this. I'm sorry" She walks pass me and I follow her down the stairs and out into the hall.

"Oh your back. How was lunch?" I hear Mum say as she walks out from the living room. Mum's eyes travelled down to Alyssa's bag she had in her hands "Oh Alyssa are you going somewhere darling"

"No... no she isn't" Abigail Alyssa's Mum answers for Alyssa as she came into view "Alyssa what do you think you are doing?"

"I'm going home" Alyssa states not meeting my eyes "I can't stay here"

"How do you expect to get back to London with no money?" Abigail asks her daughter and I could see they were having a silent conversation between their selves before Abigail let out a loud sigh and a car horn as heard from outside "Alyssa at least tell me why you're going, we only got here a few hours ago"

Alyssa's eyes finally travelled to mine and I saw the worried look in them also the sadness and emptiness I haven't since in anyone. She was troubled. Something was troubling her and she was running. I could see and tell she was running from something. Maybe her feelings. I wasn't sure, but I know the kiss was different from the one we shared in the club that time.

I broke the contact of our eyes when I saw Abigail and Mum both looking between Alyssa and myself and then I heard Alyssa speak up "I just don't want to get to know Scottie again. I'm not 12 anymore mother... Scottie and I aren't friends anymore" The car horn from outside was heard again.

That hurt... I'll admit I felt that comment strike through me and I think Alyssa notices when her eyes flickered to me and then she opened the front door and waved at the person who was waiting for her. I looked over her head and saw a guy sitting in a car just on the curb.

I didn't miss the smile that formed on her face lighting up her hazel eyes and showing off her dimples. Alyssa stepped out of the h0use and started to make her way down the drive. She said something to the guy in the car then turned back to take a quick look at me and I couldn't help, but wish I didn't kiss her at least then she wouldn't be leaving with this guy in the car. I give her a sad smile which she returned and then I watched her get into the car and they drive away.

I guess I did lose her before I had her.

Xxx

I shut the front door turning to face My Mum and Abigail. I knew what was going through their heads because I was thinking the same thing. I know I screwed up, but was she really running from me or was it something else. Has the Alyssa I use to know disappeared for good or is she still the girl I once befriended back when we were 5. I run a hand through my hair and over my face as I let out a small sigh.