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chapter twenty tree-"wish i was better"

"Stop, no, keep your distance hwang" i said as i stoped her from coming near me our whole house was dark i close all the curtains and left some lights

"ryujin..." she mumble" you're awake..." she said

"yes i am, and i'm the one who gets surprised instead of you" i said coldly

She look down with pure of guilts i know...

I should get mad at her... But when we uncover the truth i use my money to get her... Its more than enough that she give me some of her attention

But whats unaaceptable?

Those days that she says 'i love you' whenever she gets the chance... Those days i was really a fool for believing in something that impossible

"im sorry... Im not in the right state of mind..." yeji said and take a step forward and engulf me into tight hug i had no strength i cant push her even i wanted to

" I wanna get mad at you... My mind telling me to hate you, but my heart keeps on saying that i can't... My heart keeps slapping me the truth that i force you to be with me... And even loving me..." i said as a tear fell from my eyes

"but... Now i know we cant force someone to love us... I heard clearly everything hwang yeji... I heard it... You still love him... I know... And i will let you go..." i said and use all the strength that left in my body to push her

"just give me a second to explain ryujin...we can still fix things" she said while crying with my weak knees i stood up and about to go in our shared room but she back hugs me

"just give me a second... I can explain" she said

"is one second is enough for you to explain?" i asks her "its not enough right?... Like your explanation is not enough to stop my heart from breaking! I give my best!, I give all my best but why cant you see it? Wish i was better than felix... I was the first who love you but you always choose him than me... You always dump me when his around...yeji i have a heart, i have feelings too... If you cant love me at least don't let my fragile eyes and my ears hear your sounds..." i said and broke down in this moment i fall on the floor i kneel weakly tearing up crying a mess

"im so sorry ryujin..." she said and hug me

"Don't hug me hwang... This is the last time... I promise not to get near you again... I promise to stay away... I will start a new life without you..." i said and use all of my strength to stood up and headed into my closet and get a bag to pack all of my clothes she follows me

In every clothes that i will put inside my bag she will get it and throw it across the room

"you're not leaving me ryujin..." she mumble and kneel in front of me begging "please... I cant live this life without you... I love y--"

"STOP SAYING YOU FUCKING LOVE ME!!!" i burst out... Its too painful

"Cause you didn't love me yeji... you just didn't want to be alone, Or maybe i was too good for your ego.Or Maybe i made you feel better in your miserable life. but yeji didn't love me" I pause and look at her eyes

"Cause You didn't Destroy the one that you love" i said and pick my clothes that she threw and put it back in my bag

" I disrespect myself when i beg  you for bare minimum things Like Love, attention, affection, support, reciprocation and i can't do that shit again"