Derek's pov (Merder are 12):
Tw- ⚠️MENTIONS OF SA AND GROOMING⚠️ ??!!
"So does anyone know the answer?" Miss Smith asks. I raise my hand. "Yes derek?" She asks. "26" I say. "Good boy" she says. I smile.
"Hey" meredith whispers. I look at her. She's sat next to me. "When did you become such a nerd?" She says jokingly.
"Miss Smith is pretty" I stare at her. "Derek shepherd" meredith says. "What?" I ask. "She's 32.. she's your teacher" she says. "But she's really really pretty.. and I think she likes me" I say. She shakes her head.
"Meredith can you concentrate?" Miss Smith asks. "Derek was talking too" she says. I glare at her. "He wasn't.. Derek's a good boy, aren't you?" She walks over to me. I smile as she gently strokes my cheek with her thumb. I nod.
She walks back to the front of the class. Meredith looks at me. "Derek I don't like her" she says. "Mer, she likes me" I say. "Derek-" she says. "Mer.. stop" I say. She sighs, looking away.
The class ends. "You coming to mine today?" Meredith asks. "Can't.. my mom's cooking shepherds pie" I say. "You wouldn't wanna miss that" she giggles. I grin, shaking my head. "Okay.. I'll see you tomorrow" she hugs me before leaving the classroom.
"Derek can you stay for a bit please?" Miss Smith asks. "Yes miss" I smile, walking to her desk. "Tell me something Derek.." she says. I look at her curiosly. "Do you have a girlfriend?" She asks.
Present:
I gasp, opening my eyes. I sit up quickly, sweat drenching my body. "Derek?" Meredith sits up next to me in bed. I try to calm myself down. "Bad dream?" She asks. "Yes" I say.
"Miss Smith?" She whispers. I look at her. She hugs me tight. "It just brought back a lot.. seeing her" I whisper. "I know, baby" she whispers.
She looks at my stomach. "Your shirts wet through.. you want a shower?" She gently pulls the top over my head. "Okay" I say.
"We don't have to.. you can go back to sleep if you want" she says. "No.. no sleep" I say. "Okay.. you want me to join you?" She asks. I nod. We get out of bed.
We pull off our clothes and get in the shower. I reach for the shower gel. "I've got it der.. just try to relax" she whispers, putting her hands on my waist. I nod.
She grabs the shower gel, gently massaging it into my skin. she washes my face. I close my eyes. My body freezes again as I remember more.
Flashback:
I have a blindfold on. I'm sat naked in Miss smiths bed. Vanessa... Vanessa. Not miss Smith. She was very clear about that. I curl up in the sheets.
"Derek" she says, walking into the room. I sit up. "I told you not to move.. did you take off the blindfold?" She walks over to me. I shake my head. "Good boy" she says.
Present:
I gasp, opening my eyes. "Derek" meredith says. She washes the soap away from my eyes quickly before it can sting me.
"Meredith" I look into her eyes. "What der? Talk to me" she whispers, putting her hands on my cheeks.
"I don't want to see her again.. please don't let her see me again" tears run down my cheeks. I put my hands on her waist, looking I her eyes. "Okay.. okay baby, you don't have to.. you don't have to do anything you don't want to" she holds my face in her hands.
I wrap my arms around her waist. She stands on her tiptoes, wrapping her arms around my neck. I push my face into her neck. "Its okay" she runs her fingers through my hair gently.
We finally pull away slowly. "Der I think- I think you should talk to someone" she strokes my cheeks gently, wiping the tears. "Huh?" I ask. "A therapist" she says. "No" I say. "Okay.. but-" she says.
"Nobody knows meredith.. nobody knows what happened apart from me and you.. I don't want anyone to know.. ever" I say. "You don't have anything to be ashamed about.. she does.. she should get punished" she says. "No, mer.. I can't" I say. "Okay" she says. I let out a small breath.
"Please don't tell anyone" I say. "Derek.. i promised to you years ago that i would never.. its your secret to tell and I'm your best friend.. I keep your secrets" she says. I nod.
Flashback:
I tell meredith everything. Everything that happened that day after school. How I was supposed to walk home but went to her house instead. How she kissed me. Touched me. Everything.
Tears are running down her cheeks. She puts her hand on her mouth. "Derek that- that's horrible" she whispers. "Hey.. I had sex" I smile confidently. She shakes her head.
"Derek you didn't have sex.. you were.. tha- she raped you" she whispers. "No" I say. "She took advantage of you" she says. "No" I say. "Derek-" she says. "No!" I yell. She jumps slightly. I never yell at her.
"That's not true! She loves me" I say. "Derek" she whispers. I look into her eyes. "You know I'm right" she whispers.
I finally crack. "It was so scary" I whisper. She looks into my eyes as I finally tell her the real truth about it all.
"I'm so stupid" I cry Into her shoulder. "No" she wraps her arms around me. "I'm sorry.. I should've listened to you" I say. "Its not your fault, der" she whispers.
"We should tell our parents" she pulls away slowly. "No.. mer, I don't wanna tell anyone.. please, please don't tell anyone" I say. "But der-" she says.
"Meredith.. please.. promise me you won't" I say. She sighs. "I promise" she says. We entwine our pinkies.
That year we spent the rest of the time in miss smiths class together. Meredith never left me alone with her, even when miss told her to. The year after, we weren't in her class anymore.
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med school roommates
Fanfictionwhat if meredith and derek were best friends ever since childhood and went down the same career path. they share an apartment down the road from their school/college.
