Me and derek are laid in bed. We haven't spoken since we got back from picking the twins up.
I roll over, looking at him. "What happened today?" I ask softly, stroking his cheek with my fingers. "Nothing.. I just didn't want to leave them there" he says quietly.
"Why not?" I ask. "What if they got hurt.. or thought we abandoned them or something" he says. "Theres teachers there.. and they knew we were picking them up" I say.
He rolls over so he's not facing me. I furrow my brows. My face drops as I hits me.
"Oh my god.. der" I sit up. "I didn't even think.. I'm so sorry" I say. He looks at me, sitting up. "You know those teachers would never hurt out babies, right?" I say.
"How do you know that?" He asks. I don't say anything. He sighs. "My mom and dad didn't think they'd be sending me to school for some woman to hurt me" he says.
"I know" I say. "And its not their fault at all but if I sent the kids to school and that happened to them, I'd never forgive myself" he says.
"Der.. nothing will happen to them.. there's so many teachers there to protect and watch them.. even if one of them was as bad as Vanessa, the others wouldn't let that happen to them" I say. He sighs.
"What can I do to make you feel better about it?" I climb onto his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. "Well.. you can have sex with me" he mumbles. I giggle.
"I'm being serious" I say. "I don't know, mer.. it'd just a big step.. its difficult" he says. "I know.. being a virgin is-" I say. He laughs, pushing his face into my neck.
"Shut up" he mumbles into my skin. "I'm sorry" I giggle. He pulls away. "What brought this on? You were fine when we visited the pre-school" I ask.
He looks down. "This morning.. when you called lucas a good boy I-" he says. "Oh my god, I'm sorry derek" I say. "No, mer.. its fine" he shakes his head.
"Its stupid.. its just words" he says. "God, I'm so stupid" I look down. "No, you're not baby.. I am.. I'm sorry" he puts his hands on my cheeks. I look into his eyes.
"I'm sorry" I tear up. "No, don't cry" he says. "I gave you anxiety about our babies going to school" I cry.
"Please don't cry.. please please please" he puts his hands on my cheeks. "I'm sorry" I sob. He sighs.
"You didn't do anything wrong.. I'm really sorry, I wasn't trying to make you feel bad" he says. He kisses me softly.
"Okay.. I'm sorry" I whisper, pulling away. I wipe my tears. "This is why I don't like talking about it.. it hurts you" he says quietly.
"No, talk to me.. always talk to me" I put my hands on his cheeks. "I'm annoyed you didn't tell me earlier when your concerns first started" I say.
"I'm sorry.. I just feel silly.. its stupid" he says. "Your feelings aren't stupid derek.. but I need to know them.. I need to know what you're thinking" I say. He sighs.
"I promise I'll tell you from now on" he says. "Thankyou" I hug him tight. He hugs me back, breathing me in. I smile.
We pull away slowly. "I reacted bad today.. I'm sorry.. I just panicked.. all I could think about was if the kids were in danger" he says quietly.
"You should talk about it in your next therapy session" I say. "I will" he says. "Promise?" I say. He smiles, nodding.
He doesn't go as much anymore but we both agreed he shouldn't stop entirely. He just has them once a month now but he's actually cancelled the past few times.
"I'll book one for as soon as I can" he says. "Der.. promise" I say. "I promise" he says. I kiss him softly. "Thankyou" I say.
I look into his eyes. "I love you" I smile. "I love you more" he says. I kiss him deeply. He wraps his arms around my waist, hugging me tight.
We lay down, our lips not separating as we wrap our arms around eachother. I moan quietly as our tongues dance.
I pull away slowly. "Nobody will hurt out babies.. ever" I say. "Never" he says. I kiss him softly.
"You're the best dad ever.. our babies couldn't wish for a better daddy.. whether they know it yet or not" I say. "You're the best mom" he says. I smile.
"And the best fiancé.. and friend.. you're the best at everything" he says. I smile. I giggle as he kisses my nose. I scrunch my nose. "Plus you're really cute" he says. I giggle.
"Do you think.. being parents quite young ruined anything for us? Partying and stuff?" I ask. "No, honestly.. not at all.. I love being a parent so much I barely have time to think about that stuff" he says.
I smile. "Me either" I say. "Plus, we have our own fun" he says. "We do" I giggle. "We're just fun people" he grins. "We are!" I giggle. He chuckles.
I kiss him softly. "Its my bedtime" I say. He chuckles. "You're so lame" he pulls me into his arms. I giggle. "I'm going to sleep" I grin. I snuggle into him.
"Okay" he strokes my hair gently until I eventually fall asleep in his arms.
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med school roommates
Fanfictionwhat if meredith and derek were best friends ever since childhood and went down the same career path. they share an apartment down the road from their school/college.
