med school roommates

chapter 150

It's 10am and me and mia are sat in the living room. Derek's at work. "Mornin mommy" lucas walks in. "Good morning baby" I smile, looking at him. He walks over to me.

I pick him up, sitting him on the couch next to me and mia. "What do you two want to eat?" I ask. "Toast pwease" lucas says. "Me too" Mia says. I get up and go to the kitchen.

I gasp, wincing in pain. "Mommy, awe you okay?" Mia asks. "Yeah.. mommy's fine" I smile. "I must've slept funny last night.. my back hurts" I smile.

"You want me to hewp you?" She walks over. "Sure sweetie" I smile, picking her up. I sit her on the counter infront of me. I put the toast in the toaster.

"Lukie, you wanna help too?" I smile. "Okay mommy" he walks over. I put him next to mia.

I give them both a slice of toast each. "You know how to do it?" I ask, giving them a plastic knife each and a bit of butter. They both nod and start spreading it onto the toast.

"Done" mia puts the knife down. "Well done baby" I giggle, kissing her nose. She grins. "No! Baby, no eating butter" I giggle as I see lucas eat a handful of it. "Dirty" I wipe his hand. He giggles.

"Stop!" I giggle as he licks his hand again. He grins. I groan in pain. "Mama what's wrong?" Mia asks. "Nothing, sweetie" I shake my head.

I wrap my arms around my stomach as I feel a stabbing pain in my back and stomach. I carefully lift the twins off of the counter.

"Babies go to your room" I say. "But mommy-" lucas says. "Both of you go to your room now!" I yell. They both run to their room. I whimper, grabbing my phone.

I sit on the kitchen floor. I call derek. "Hi" he says. "Derek" I cry. "What? What's wrong?" He asks. "Hurts" I sob. "I'm on my way baby, you're at home, right?" He asks. "Mhm!" I cry. He hangs up.

I sob as I look down, seeing blood spill down my thighs, all over derek's shirt I'm wearing. A few minutes later I hear the door open. I'm now sweating a lot aswell.

"Meredith" he says. He runs over to me. He gasps quietly. "Its okay.. you're okay baby, I've got you" he picks me up bridal style carefully.

"Cl-othe-s" I say weakly. "I know, I'm coming back to get the twins" he says, carrying me out of the door. He carries me downstairs and puts me in the car.

He runs back into the apartment and comes back out with the twins and a change of clothes for me. The twins are crying in the back of the car but I can't bring myself to even open my eyes.

Derek speeds to the closest doctors. The twins get out of the car, grabbing my clothes. He picks me up, carrying me inside.

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"I'm so sorry, you had a miscarriage" the doctor says. I look down. I'm sat on the bed in the doctors surgery. Derek's stood next to me and someone's watching the twins outside.

"O-oh.. okay" I whisper tearfully. "Do you have any questions.. I'll leave you two alone" she says. I shake my head. She walks out.

"Meredith, I-" he whispers. "I'm sorry" I sob, pushing my face into his stomach. "Oh, baby" he whispers, pulling me into his arms. I whimper, my tears soaking his shirt.

I finally pull away slowly. "Are the twins okay? I scared them" I ask. "Meredith, don't worry about that" he says. "No, they're my-my babies.. I need to know if they're okay" I barely get out between my sniffles.

"They're fine sweetheart, they're okay" he says. "Can I have my clothes please? I want to go home" I say. He passes me my clothes. I take off the gown the doctor gave me and put on my clothes.

I wipe my eyes, standing up. "You in pain?" He asks. "No" I shake my head. He puts his hands on my cheeks. My lip trembles as I look into his eyes. "Are you okay? You were so happy about the baby" I whisper.

"Don't worry about me.. I'm fine.. I'm worried about you" he whispers. "I'm okay.. I just want to go home" I say. "Okay, we can go home" he says.

We walk out to the twins. He picks them up and we go outside to the car. I just stare outside the window silently the whole time.

We get home and go inside. "Mia.. lucas, do you want daddy to read you a bedtime story?" I ask, walking into their room. They both ignore me.

"Listen, I'm really sorry for shouting at you both.. I didn't mean it.. and I didn't mean to scare you" I say. They both look away from me angrily.

"Please don't be mad at me" I start crying uncontrollably. They both look at me. They get out of bed and run over to me. I kneel down to them.

"I didn't mean to yell at you.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry" I say. "Its okay mommy" lucas hugs me. "I fowgive you mommy" Mia hugs me. I pull them into my arms.

I finally put them back in their beds and stay with them until they fall asleep. I go to mine and Derek's room and climb into bed next to him.

He pulls me into his arms. I sob into his chest. We hold eachother tight. I eventually cry myself to sleep in his arms.

I'm sorry...