Help me. | l.s. (mpreg) [Book 1]

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I'm back!!!

Louis ran back into the hospital without thinking about the possible consequences his decision might had. The only thing he knew was that he couldn't live without Harry. And he couldn't cause him even more pain by being a coward and ending his life.

He ran past the reception and rode up to the fourth floor stepping from one foot to the other impatiently. As soon as the doors opened he rushed to Harry's room and barged inside without knocking.

He stopped in his tracks when he saw Zayn, Niall and Liam all surrounding Harry trying to calm him down who was still sobbing heavily, but their heads snapped up now shocked when they saw Louis standing in the door, his eyes glued to the love of his life.

Harry's mouth escaped another sob as he noticed Louis who snapped out of his trance and rushed over to him. The others stepped away still perplexed of what the hell was going on right now.

"Like I could ever leave you again." Louis breathed out on his way and almost instantly Harry threw himself in his arms crying into his shoulder as soon as Louis was standing in front of him. He clawed his trembling fingers in his shoulders as if Louis would vanish if he'd let him go. "We're going home. All three of us." Louis whispered with a thick voice holding Harry tightly.

He could faintly hear the boys behind him gasping but he couldn't care less what they thought now. The only thing that mattered for him was Harry and that he would never letting him go again. In this moment where he had him in his arms he swore to himself to be strong and get over his trauma. For Harry. For himself. For his family. He knew it would be a long path, but he had to fight.

"Y-you mean it? No, w-wait. Y-you're joking, right?" Harry hiccuped leaning back when Louis' words finally got into him and he searched his face for any trace of lie, but there was none. Crystal blue eyes were staring into his soul and he knew that Louis meant it.

"No, I'm serious. I will manage. I'll continue with my therapy and I will get over it, but I can't let you go again." Louis pressed out. "I can't live without you, baby."

"N-no, y-you're not ready." Harry shook his head frantically, but Louis grabbed him and held his cheeks tightly looking at him intensely.

"I will be. I will manage, but I would never forgive myself if I'd let you go and miss the chance of having a family with you." Louis said determined. He pushed the fear that was erupting in his guts away quickly and didn't allow himself to have doubts. He made his decision and he wouldn't back out now.

"Are you sure?" Harry mumbled doubtfully rubbing his fist over his eye.

"One hundred percent." Louis smiled. He didn't miss the hopeful glimmer in Harry's eyes and the hesitant smile that crept on his face.

"Okay." Harry breathed out relieved. His heart could burst right now and even though he didn't want to get his hopes up too much because he didn't know how Louis would actually react when he saw his son for the first time let alone having him around the whole time, but he allowed himself to think that everything would turn out well eventually.

"Okay." Louis repeated grinning. Harry threw himself in his arms again, his emotions were all over the place right now and Louis sensed it holding him tight.

They were aware that their friends were still in the room and watching the scene cautiously and when Louis turned his head over to them after leaning back, but pulling Harry in his side he saw their worried gazes.

"Are you really sure about that?" Zayn was the first one to speak up carefully.

"Yes, Zayn. I know it will be a long way, but I want to do it. And I would appreciate it if you accept my decision." Louis said softly.