Starlight (Yelena Belova and Kate Bishop one shots)

Sweetheart (2)

You were sitting at the back of the jet, staring out of the window.

Wanda (the redhead who had thrown the antidote at you) was driving while your sister remained next to you, so close and yet so far.

You could see that she desperately wanted to talk to you but couldn't figure out how.

And neither could you. You had thousands of questions to ask and really, really needed a hug from Yelena except...it wasn't so simple.

This girl, who had become a woman in the years you had spend apart was nothing more than a stranger to you now.

You didn't know if you could trust her, didn't know if she really cared about you or would get rid of you when she had a chance.

How did you tell someone you hadn't seen in years that you were scared and terribly needed them ?

Wait, no. You were not scared at all. You were free now but that didn't mean you were no longer a widow. You were made of marble and didn't need ANYONE.

" Y/n, are you okay ? " Yelena tried putting a hand on your shoulder but you flinched away.  " Look, I know this must be really hard. And I won't force you to hug me or even say a word if you don't want to but...I'm here for you. No matter what happens, I'm here for you. "

She smiled at you and it was so gentle, so caring, you felt like breaking down.

But you didn't. Of course you didn't. You didn't want Yelena to think you were a crybaby.

What if she punished you or gave you back to Dreikov ? What if she left you again ?

She had said she was there for you yet you couldn't believe her.

Trusting people wasn't your strong suit and honestly, who could have blamed you ?

After about an hour, you found yourself struggling to keep your eyes opened.

Yelena wasn't saying anything but her presence was so comforting and you had been awake for at least 24h.

You knew dozing off around strangers was dangerous.

Which meant you couldn't fall asleep. You couldn't fall asleep. You couldn't...

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You were back in the Red Room. Like in most of your nightmares.

You expected to be either tortured or have to kill someone innocent.

But this time, it was different. Because for once, Yelena was there.

And she was the one being tortured while you were tied up to a chair.

Her cries of pain were unbearable. So unbearable you wanted to rip your ears off to make them stop.

And then, she stopped screaming completely which was somehow even more terrifying.

" Y/n, Y/n stop screaming I'm okay ! " Someone shook you awake gently. " Everything's alright. You're alright ! "

You opened your eyes to see Yelena glaring at you with concerned.

And that's when you realized you were clinging to her like she was your lifeline.

" I'm sorry. " You hiccupped, struggling to catch your breath. " I'm really really sorry. "

You tried to pull away but instead of letting you go, your sister pulled you closer.

She rubbed your back as you let out uncontrollable sobs.

You hadn't cried in probably five years and all of of the sudden, you were not able to stop anymore.

Maybe it was the nightmare. Or maybe it was because no one had hugged you since you and Yelena had been separated.

You were in pain and for the first time in years, you let yourself feel that pain.

And be the wounded, traumatized kid you had never been allowed to be.

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Yelena's Pov

I brushed a strand of hair from my little sister's face as she slept peacefully.

I was still hugging her tight, afraid she would disappear if I ever let her go again.

" So, how is she ? " Wanda sat next to me, having activated the autopilot. " I heard screams earlier..."

" Yeah, yeah. " I kissed Y/n's head before sighting. " She had a nightmare but I helped her through it. "

" I see. " Wanda patted my shoulder comfortingly. " You're worried about her, aren't you ? "

" Well...of course I am. " I turned away to hide my glassy eyes.
" She's just...she's just a kid. And she needs me but I don't know how to be there for her. What if I mess something up ? "

" You won't. And even if you do, Y/n will forgive you. You're learning how to be a big sister again and that surely isn't easy. It's okay to make mistakes you know ? "

I nodded but didn't really believe her words. Making mistakes was never okay and it was even less okay when it came to my little sister.

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Your pov
You woke up to Yelena stocking your hair gently.

Had it been anyone else, you would have probably panicked but this wasn't just anyone.

This was your big sister and even after ten years, you still trusted her.

Some things never change...

" Hi sweetheart. " You gave her a weird look and she hesitated. " Is it okay if I call you sweetheart ? If you don't like it I can..."

" No, don't worry about it. " You reassured her. " Sweetheart is fine. "

And it really was. Anything Yelena did to show you she cared was fine.

" We're at the Avenger compound. " Your sister explained. " Widows like you are usually sent elsewhere but...I wanted to spend some time with you. If you wish to leave you are completely
free. "

" I'll be more than happy to stay. " You smiled at her before getting up. " I really missed you you know ? "

" Me too Y/n. Me too. "

So this is the end of this series for now. I might continue it later though, what do you think ?