Vampire Diluc x Reader [REMASTERED]

Chapter 19

-Diluc's POV-

I sighed to myself, gazing out the window.

What the hell happened to my mind?

Weird thoughts, that I considered not to be my own, kept ringing through my ears.

'When I met her I'd already lost my entire world. There's something in her eyes that is so beautiful, so safe and warm.'

I ran my hands through my hair, trying to make it go away. 

'I'm not even in love.'  I told myself. 'It's just my mind playing tricks on me. Besides, no one could ever love me romantically. I'm a monster.'

"Diluc, are you sure you're alright? You look like you've just seen a ghost."
Y/N's voice brought me back to reality once again.

"Yeah, um... I'm okay. Could you please start a conversation?" I asked, feeling a little sorry for myself that I let my thoughts take control over me.

"A conversation? About what, exactly?"

"Anything. I feel like I'm going insane."

She blinked a few times in confusion, but didn't question my reasoning. That is something I am eternally grateful for - she likes me for who I am, not for how I look or how I seem.

"Alright, hm... well, what do you enjoy talking about?"

My vision averted to the floor. I was trying my best to think of something...

"I'm... not sure. Other than you, I rarely talk to anyone. I'm sorry."

She shook her head, telling me that it was fine.

"Don't worry. Hmm... how about something simple? What holidays do you like?"

I could tell she was trying to calm me down subtly. I looked around, before turning my head to make eye contact with her.

Even if those thoughts weren't controlled by me, they weren't wrong in some areas. Her eyes actually were beautiful...

"Erm..." I started, forcing the thoughts to get out of my head. "I like Halloween, I suppose it's just nice to see people's perspectives on evil."

She nodded, followed with a warm smile.

"Yeah, I like Halloween too. But my all time favourite has to be in November, when all of the fireworks go off. It's one of the only nights in the year where I can just forget about everything and focus on the sky."

As she said that, I pictured lots of fireworks going off in the sky. I would have given anything to just see them shoot in the sky that very night.

"What colour fireworks would you like to see, though? All of them are pretty, but plain white ones all the time would probably be quite boring." Y/N leaned back on the sofa we were sitting on and glanced at me.

"Light blue. Or, uh... yellow. They would stick out from the night sky the best."

She nodded in agreement.

"Yellow fireworks would be cool. Hopefully we can see some later this year." 

"Thank you."

"For what?"

I took a deep breath.

"I've been having some... strange thoughts. You helped me calm down. Thank you."

"Oh, of course. You've helped me out countless times now, it's the least I can do. Having intrusive thoughts is not helpful, especially if you're trying to tell yourself something. You can talk to me if you need to."

I was pretty surprised by her sudden supportive words.

"Thank you, again. I haven't had the best day today."

"Well, there's always tomorrow and so on to prevent what happened today."

The temptation to straight up pull her into an embrace was taking over me, so I decided to stand up and stop my clearly somewhat corrupted mind from making me do anything.
"Do you mind if I go to bed? It's a little early, but we've been busy today."

"Of course not, I'm getting a little tired myself. Night, Diluc."

A smile grew on to my face as I gave her a nod, before going upstairs to my bedroom.

'She's too sweet. I don't deserve somebody so caring yet so understanding. I truly enjoyed talking with her today, and I look forward to it tomorrow...'

My mind spoke for me again.

But... this time, I agreed with what I was thinking.

-My POV-

I flopped on to my bed and stared at the ceiling.

I felt bad that Diluc had a bad day, but at the same time I was proud of myself for cheering him up, even if it was just a little bit.

I could feel my cheeks heating up, though I didn't understand why that was happening. Either way, I hoped that me and Diluc could spend more time together. It felt great to have such a close friend.