finding me while loving you

part 5

Demi's POV

I groan as I hear my alarm going off shortly after I just shut my eyes for the night. Grace and I made it up to the bed and held each other and both dozed off, but only for a few hours. It was 2am and I had to get up and go in order to get back to LA in a timely manner. The alarm also woke Grace up because I felt her squeeze me tighter.

"Dems, I don't want you to go." She whispered into my neck while squeezing me. Her very sleepy voice made my heart beat faster and I was so tempted to cancel everything and stay wrapped up in her.

"I don't want to go." I whispered back and kissed her forehead.

"I'm serious, I like - I don't want you to go." She said as her voice cracked. "I am so scared you're going to go back to LA and realize how much you don't need such an ordinary girl like me. You could have anybody you want."

"Grace!" I exclaimed, shocked that she had such low confidence in herself that she would think anyone in this world is better than her.

"Demi, I'm serious." She cried into my neck. I didn't realize how upset she was until I felt wetness on my neck.

"Baby, please, PLEASE don't cry. I'm not going to be able to leave you if you're crying." I whispered and started rubbing her back.

"I'm going to miss you so much. Four days seems like forever." She said.

"I'm going to miss you so much, but I promise, you will have every second of my spare time and four days will fly by." I tried to convince her.

"Please, just kiss me." She whispered so lightly I barely heard her. I cupped her cheeks and kissed her as passionately as I could.

"I want to stay here kissing you forever, but I really have to get up and go. I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'll get up and get my stuff and head home."

"What? No! You're going to fall back asleep and you can head out in the morning. We don't have time to drop you off and you're not traveling around by yourself at 2am." I told her.

"You know Demi, I am grown and lived here a while before I met you. 2am is always the time I walked home from the bar with Sophia." She said, not fully thinking about what she said.

"Oh, well that's nice." I said back as I untangled myself from her.

"No, stop." Grace pulled me right back in. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought her up. I didn't mean to. All I meant was that I am capable of getting myself back home."

I sighed and kissed her forehead. "I know you are. But it would make me feel better to know you're asleep in my bed and safe and sound. But, if you want to head home, you can." I finally got up and turned the light on to start getting dressed.

"It's okay. I'm so tired, I'll stay. Although it's going to be weird without you in bed with me." She looked at me with sad eyes.

I quickly got dressed and brushed my teeth and grabbed the few things I needed to go back to LA. I was on such a time crunch and Max was already outside waiting for me.

"Baby, I have to go." I looked at her with nothing but love in my eyes. She pulled the blankets back and got up and looked so adorable and sleepy in my shirt. She walked up to me and wrapped her arms so tightly around my neck.

"Goodbye, my love. Have the safest travels and let me know once you're on the plane and landed. Actually, just update me with everything that you do. I'm going to miss you."

"I promise I will. I'm going to miss you more. Four days, baby." I said as I closed the gap between us and place my lips on hers. We let our lips dance around for just a minute and then I pulled back, because I really had to go. Grace climbed back in bed and pulled the blankets over her. I leaned down once more and kissed her forehead and made my way out the door. I got into the car and everything truly hit me at once. What. In. The. Fuck. Happened. These. Last. 48. Hours. I met the most amazing girl that I swear I feel like I'm already starting to fall in love with. Usually when it comes to love and relationships, I'm just anxious. I don't have the best past with "love." I have a lot of hook ups, but rarely ever experienced love. I never craved it or wanted it like I do in this moment.