finding me while loving you

part 15

Grace's POV

I woke up to the sun beating down on me, and a pounding headache. I stretched out my body, instantly remembering the night before, and my stomach flipping. I noticed a blanket over me, which made me half smile, thinking of Demi coming out to put a blanket over me. I stood up, feeling dizzy and hungover, but still made my way inside.

"Dems?" I yelled out as I got inside. I didn't hear a response, so I walked all throughout the house. I checked every room, and didn't see anyone. Demi's bed was made and I realized she probably left for the day. I went back outside to check my phone, and didn't have anything from Demi. Tears instantly came to my eyes, and I felt so lost. I know she was most likely working, but I wish we would've made up before she left. I felt so anxious and like such an asshole for saying what I said to her. I went up to her room and laid on the bed, and called my mom. I explained to her the whole situation, hoping for some insight.

"Well honey, it sounds like you were the jerk in this situation."

"Mom, god, I know I wasn't the nicest but I'm not going to be with someone who's going to choose drugs."

"Gracie, I wish I make you understand but it's something you probably won't be able to wrap your head around unless it happened to you. Addition is a serious disease, and it completely alters your brain. Demi is an addict, and those temptations are always going to be there. It's not going to go away no matter how sober she is or how long she's been sober for. To her, it'll always be a craving, and that's not her fault. Addiction sucked her in and sadly, it never lets you go." She explained to me, and I was feeling more guilty with every word she was saying. "You should be happy and most importantly, proud of her for not doing the drugs. You probably have no idea how hard it was for her to resist them; because to an addict, that's the one thing their brain is always going to want."

"I fucked up, didn't I, mama?"

"Language." My mom scolded.

"I don't have time for that right now. What do I do?!"

"Own up to your shit, honey." She put it blunt and simple. "You're still learning her world and you crossed a line, and you need to own up to it."

"Thank you, Mama. I love you. I'll see you soon."

"I love you, honey. It'll all be okay, I promise. Relationships are never going to be easy, but just remember, you always have to show up for the person you love. You just do."

I smiled at her response, feeling happy that she was there for me during this. We said our goodbyes and I hung up, laying my phone down next to me and closing my eyes. God, I'm such an idiot. I heard my phone buzz, praying it was Demi, but to my surprise, it was Carson.

"Carson: Dude you're mad whack for saying what you said to Demi"

I didn't know what to feel over this. Demi telling on me to my 17 year old brother was cute, annoying, and funny. I let out a giggle, feeling warm at my brother being protective over Demi, and then rolling my eyes at her telling him what happened.

"Grace: I know. I get it."

"Carson: You really hurt her feelings, Grace."

The text from my little brother made my heart drop, hurting my feelings more that I hurt Demi the way that I did.

"Grace: I didn't mean to, Carson. I really didn't. I'll fix it."

"Carson: You need to or I'll beat yo a$$"

I let out a laugh at my brother's obnoxious text, and threw my head back in regret. I just want to fix this, and I just want everything to be okay.

Demi's POV