finding me while loving you

part 18

Grace's POV

"Ow, fuck, it hurts." Demi whined out, standing in the water under the shower. "I have hickies everywhere."

I let out a slight giggle, because I really did leave marks all over her body.

"I'm sorry. Tequila does something to me and you really pissed me off." I said, very blunt. Demi's eyes got soft and sweet, making eye contact with me.

"Okay, Grace. I get it. I know I was rude last night." Demi said back, getting irritated. "You already took it out on me."

I stepped under the water to get closer to her, putting my hands around her hips.

"Hey, look at me. What's wrong?" I asked her quietly, looking at her in the eyes. She just shrugged her shoulders and didn't say anything. After a minute, she spoke up.

"I just want to move past it. I know how rude I was, and I really am sorry for it. I thought we'd be okay after the way you fucked me last night."

I was taken back by her words, not sure what to make of them.

"Did you not like it? Or did you not want to?" I asked, genuinely curious and feeling guilty.

"No, I did. I really did. You were just very rough which was fine, but I'm really sore today. And after you were done, you literally passed out and just left me laying there. It made me feel so shitty." Demi said, her voice cracking at the end.

"Oh, fuck, Dems." I said, pulling her by her hips to be closer to me. "I'm so sorry, sweet girl." I whispered, nose to nose with her.

"It's okay." Demi barely made out.

"No, it's not. I had no intention of making you feel like that and I shouldn't have been so rough with you if I wasn't able to provide aftercare for you. Fuck, I wish I wouldn't have went right to sleep after. I'm so sorry for making you feel like that." I spoke, truly feeling guilty thinking of her feeling that way.

Demi just put her arms around my neck, pulling me into a tight hug. She didn't say anything, just stood there and let me hold her.

"I'm so in love with you. You're the sweetest thing that's ever happened to me and I'd be so lost without you. I would do anything to take away how I made you feel. I don't want sex to become something that is a bad experience with us. I'm so sorry, sweetheart."

"I know you didn't mean it, it just made me feel like I was being used for my body and that was the first time we were ever that rough, so when you went right to sleep after being so rough, I just kind of felt.. like an object, y'know?" Demi spoke honestly to me.

"I'm so so sorry, baby. I promise, that's not how I feel. I should've been more attentive." I held her closer. "How can I fix this or make it better?"

"Let's just have a good day. I just want to spend the whole day together and be alone. I just need you today."

I nodded my head, holding her close to me, internally cursing myself for not being smarter than that.

"Where are you sore?" I asked.

"The inside of my vagina is very sore. It hurts, especially when I sit. It feels like there's so much pressure. And my ass is still so red from how hard you were smacking it." She let out a little giggle. I felt my throat hitch, feeling guilty that I over did it and hurt her.

"I'm so sorry." I grabbed her face. "I'm literally so fucking sorry."

"Baby, I truly enjoyed every minute of it. It was something new and exciting and it was so sexy. You had my full consent during all of it. Next time, I just want more of your attention afterwards. That's all." She leaned in and connected our lips, and although I wasn't fully convinced, I kissed her back and decided to move on. We washed each other's hair and body, and continued on with our shower.