A visitor

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Welcome back, come inside
It's been a while, hasn't it?
Take off your heavy coat
And your dirty shoes
Toss them on my old faded carpet
And tell me what's on your mind

Sit on my favorite chair
If you'd like, you could sit anywhere
Whichever spot better suits your tastes
Relax, unwind and make yourself at home

Would you like something to drink?
Water, tea or lemonade that's pink
I've been saving my best for you,
And I haven't had a drink in weeks

But for you, my friend, I'll raise a roast
To a life I lost, and the one you want most,
I raise it to the mirror in the corner
And take the whole glass in one swig

Looking at you here tonight, I see
A hollow shell of the man you used to be
Your eyes still shine, with a foreign glow
But your smile's fallen a long time ago

My humble home no longer a source of joy,
Simply the residence of a tired old cowboy
You rest your legs and show your heart
To the rest of the world, once you depart

I'm a place for you to go when things get hard
Your sword and shield, your staff and guard
I'll forever fight for you and guide you through
I swear I would do it all, just to protect you

You set the cup down a little too hard,
Cutting my hand with a small glass shard
You cry out how you love her so,
How you wish you could let her know

She's beautiful, she's kind, she's smart
She plays the guitar and she does art
She's everything you wished I could be
Every little thing you never saw in me

You tell me her body is better than mine
Her skin hugs her bones and her waist is fine
You love how she's different from how I was
You love that her smile makes your heart buzz

By now every piece of the mug has moved
Digging into my heart, making terrible grooves
Cuts and scrapes and scars and folds
You have no idea the weight your words hold

Pulling the pieces out and throwing them away,
I sigh and tell you how it will all be okay
You're big, you're strong and you're so sweet
You'll know your perfect girl the second you meet

You take a deep breath and sigh with relief
And with a sharp inhale through your teeth,
You stand and get up, full of energy again
Ready to face the world to it's bitter end

You smile and thank me for my hospitality
I'm just happy I could keep up my normality
With tears pushing behind my eyes,
I smile and wave while I say my goodbyes

The door is closed, and my house breathes out
Now that you're gone, I can let myself pout
My life's purpose has been boiled down to this
Ignoring my wants and helping you reminisce

My eyes begin to cry as I think about the past
Was I an idiot for so expecting us to last?
How can you sit here with that cold, unfeeling face,
When I feel like a runner who just lost his big race?

Did I really and truly mean so little to you
That you so quickly move on to somebody new?
The love and the effort I once brought
Now nothing more than a faint, distant thought?

I'm out here drowning in what could have been
And you're telling me it's too hard to even listen
But for the rest of time, you can trust I'll be here
Forever the one who wipes away your tears

I don't resent you, with you I have no strife
I simply wish I could play a bigger role in your life
I miss you more and more with every passing day
Always pondering the reason why you didn't stay

You left me when I most needed you not to,
It wasn't my best moment as a partner, it's true,
But I had hoped we would work through it together,
That you meant it when you said always and forever

Now I find I'm walking on ice to try and find
A new way every day to keep your feelings in mind
I want you to rediscover your passion for us
I'll wait here for eons until you decide to discuss

If that's what it takes to fall back into your arms
I'll stand here forever, lost in your charms
The butterflies in my stomach are starving
And your lack of concern for me is alarming
But I can't imagine my world without you

And so, good sir I'll stand here at this door
On this old dingy carpet
I'll clean up this house for the next time you come
Order my next set of mugs
Vacuum the shoebox
Make sure I'm ready

Because the only thing I can think about until then
Is how much I want you to visit again

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