I once wrote asking the world and no one in particular
For someone whose hands would sweat like mine
And someone who would hold hands with me anyways
Now that I've traced your veins and squeezed your wrist
I can say confidently that my wish came true
I wrote a song about how no one could learn to love me
Don't you know how rare it is to find someone like you?
Someone who not only fits my every bill,
But someone who likes me the same?
Now that you're really here I can hardly believe my eyes.
Truly, you're beautiful, and I love looking at you
Your smile sings even while you stay silent,
And the world sings back its colorful reprise
And should you choose to join them, you can find me
Hiding behind my hands from the perfect symphony
I've lived behind a lie my whole life, I don't know who i am
All I know is to copy the people around me and be like them
But while I'm with you, I'm learning who I was always meant to be
I was meant to be awkward and loving and clumsy
Everything that doesn't feel wrong anymore, because you said it was okay
You're teaching me how to be me, instead of playing pretend
And all the while, I'm still learning about you
Spending every second I can talking to you
And every second I can't, I'm thinking of you
First thought in the morning, Last thought at night
The way I love you scares me so, You've entranced me
You're all that's on my mind, and my favorite thing to talk about
I want to trail behind you, pretending I know where I'm going
I want to feel every part of you, get to know it by memory
I want you. To be mine and I, to be yours
I've yet to remember how to trust in the concept of love
3 years ago I was in the same place I am now
I'm scared in 2 years, you'll find you've lost this feeling
The same way he did, the same sudden ending
And beyond that, I'm scared I'll hurt you somehow
The most beautiful thing in the world in my hands,
And here I am too afraid of it to take that risk
Our gap in age doesn't help, once I'm gone
One year from now I'll be hundreds of miles away
Would you wait for me? I'd wait for you
Too many questions, no time to answer even one
I just want to stop thinking and hold you again
I want that high, that adrenaline dopamine rush
That makes me forget why I was sad this morning
And reminds me why I wake up every day.
For now, let's explore this route together.
I'm not in any rush, and I hope I'm not bothering you
You don't seem to mind so I'll let it be this once
Everything is easier when you're around anyways,
So let's just take this day by day and we will see
Until then, Fall back with me and let me trust you
I'll get there soon, I can feel it already
I love you, darling I promise that won't change
You make me happier than anything else has
And I hope you'll let me do the same for you
I once wrote a letter to heaven, asking them to take me sooner
Now I'm following up and begging them to let me stay
Now, my letters are all to you and they're about love
I wrote a song, and it sounded like your hugs
I wrote a poem and it didn't rhyme
Because it was meant to resemble you
I wrote this, and this is nonsense
but everyone knows it's about you
