knight in amor | na jaemin

Can't do this

Can we go where no one else goes?
Can I know what no one else knows?
Can we fall in love in the moonlight?

"You sure you're not cold love?" He asked as he opened the car door for her, helping her out of the car.

"It's just a bit chilly" she said with a sheepish smile, knowing it was her fault for forgetting to bring a jacket.

"Have this" he said with a smile as she draped his grey suit jacket onto her shoulder and back

"Thanks nana" She said with a smile

"Nana?" He asked with an eyebrow raised at the nickname, she wasn't usually the type to be giving out nicknames either

"Mhmm it suits you" she said and he smiled

"Whatever you say cinderella" he said with a smile, leading the way into the modern coffee shop, decorated with big leafy dark green plants.

"Welcome" the barista bowed to the two and they bowed back before approaching the counter.

"What would you like?" Jaemin asked her and she hummed before turning to the barista

"Could I have the strawberry hibiscus iced tea" she said and they nodded, while Jaemin ordered his drink, a green iced tea as he was advised by the medics to cut off caffeine, she Yeseul had her apple pay open and ready. Scanning her card as soon as the order total came on the screen and Jaemin looked at her surprised

"My treat" she said and he smiled before thanking her respectfully

"Here you go" the barista said, passing them their table number so their drinks would be served to them. They thanked her again and took a seat at a table near the window but away from the centre of the shop to get some privacy.

"How have you been?"

"How are you feeling?"

They both said simultaneously making the other laugh, eyes softening at their interactions. She reached her hands out across the table to place it onto his, giving it a reassuring squeeze

"You go first" she said and he smiled, looking down

"It went okay, I was in a bit of pain from the surgery but it wasn't the worst. They'll have to track my progress for another month before deciding if i would be ready for another heart surgery" he said and she smiled, not looking away from his eyes once, which was insanely hard to do considering feeling extremely small under his gaze.

"Is the pain gone now?" She asked and he sighed, slowly shaking his head

"Yes. But I am on a pretty strict diet these days to lessen the pain and chances of heart palpitations" he said and she nodded. He was very fond of the way she cared for him, asking about his pain and how he was feeling. She seemed to have all ears open for him and he liked that someone could comfort him but the words of the boys ran through his mind.

"I saw you guys went camping! How was the trip?" She asked and he smiled

"Really really good! We had a barbecue and took a few swims along the lake. Just did guy things i guess, drink beer and talk..." he said drifting his sentence off as his smile slowly faded

"How about you, what were you up to? You and Mark seem super close" Jaemin said, the tinge of envy flowing through the last statement as he removed his hands from her grip

"Umm yeah...he helped me a lot with Jisung, thanks for letting us stay by the way, Jisung was able to have a super fast recovery because of you" she said, taking the keycard from the back of her phone case before passing it back to him

"You can still use my place if you need" he suggested but she sighed

"You need your own space" she said and he slowly nodded

"But yeah it's pretty boring without you I realised, Mark and I would usually go get coffee or brunch before we head to our shifts" she said with a smile and he nodded, she noticed how his smile hadn't reached his eyes for the whole day today. Something was bothering him.

"Do you want to go for a walk in the park?" She asked and he nodded, smiling at the idea before telling the staff to make their drinks for take away

Once they had their drinks, Jaemin drove them to a famous tourist park nearby in the area.

"The weather is so nice today" she said looking at the sun blaring through the clouds, yet it was still in the winter-spring months.

"Do you mind if i bring my camera along? Would be nice to get a few landscape shots" he said and she nodded her head as she watched him set up his camera together, wrapping the band around his neck.

"Do you photograph things a lot?" She asked and he smiled

"Yeah whenever i get the chance, i took loads of pictures during the camping session, I'll show you some later" he said looking at her proudly

"...if you're interested?" He said making sure she was happy with the idea

"Of course i am, wouldn't be bad seeing a bit of your camera skills" she said with a smile. She slowly started to look at him seriously as she noticed his smile slowly turning into a frown as he focused on the camera.

"Hey, you okay?" She asked softly, touching his arm making his tense under her touch, halting his actions

"I can't do this anymore" he sighed, turning around to face her fully. The cliche line had made her stomach plummet into depths of her body

"What's wrong?" She asked, looking down at her shoes, the warmth his jacket was giving her was now starting to get colder. He was contemplating on telling her, that he couldn't see her anymore. But his chest only tightened as he saw her slowly starting to step away from him

"How am I meant to stand in-front of the most prettiest girl in the world, and resist every urge to kiss her?" He said with a sigh, holding his hand out to grab her wrist, pulling her closer to him, a cheeky grin taking over his face as he watched her sigh in relief

"Yeseul-ah...you're truly one of a kind" he said, an arm wrapping around her waist, keeping her as close to him as possible as they leaned against his car, his other hand cupping the side of her face

"Don't ever do that again! I was so worried you asshole!" She whined, hitting his chest but her eyes widened as she realised he had just gone through an operation

"Ah im so sorry, are you okay?! I didn't mean to hit you there-"

He cut her worried statements off by connecting his lips with hers. It's as if his lips were speaking unspoken words, unspoken words of love, affirmations of infatuation with the girl, yet he couldn't help but feel guilty. It was a selfish act, on his part. But he couldn't help himself.