Never letting you go (Penelope x reader)

The one with jealousy

A/n sorry it's taking so much time, but it's the end of yet another school semester. And since I'm studying medicine I'm out to practice at a palliative retirement home. So I'm quite busy but I'll try my best. In the mean time you can read One Temptation with Penelope Garcia, it's so good. (PS it's not my story)

Y/n pov

As soon as Emily and Aaron had come into the club i could see something. I don't know what but it's the same thought i had before. But i'm probably seeing something that isn't even there. And if there were something then they would tell us in their own time. Even though that would be to keep us quiet since there is a fraternisation rule inside the bureau, there are even seminars about it. That's where Penelope and Kevin are lucky, they're not on the same team, not even the same department, only both and technical analyst.

But for another three hours we all just make small talk. We've moved around so we're no longer sitting in couples. On chairs we now have Emily and me, on my other side Penelope is sitting, beside her we have JJ. Then there is Lena and Reid who seem to share interest in medical science, after that we have Will with Savannah and lastly Aaron and Morgan.

"How's the hand?" Aaron asks and brings my attention back to him from something Penelope said.

"Fine, will be back to normal in a few days" i know his underligering question about me being in the field but I just give him a reassuring smile. Penelope nudged her knee against mine to get my attention back while the others continued their conversations. I see the same question in her eyes as i had the first time i stepped into the bullpen. I knew this was coming even though i hoped she had forgotten.

"Still a conversation for another time?" she asks as she sees i understand her question.

"Yes, still for another time. Maybe over a cup of coffee someday?" i say as i know that if i don't tell her she'll search it up and find out everything. Which is something i certainly don't want.

"Sure" she answers with a hesitant smile that makes me melt once again. But i quickly pull myself together as i remember where we are, who we are with and who we are. This time it's Emily who nudges me under the table, making me turn towards her in the chair.

"Someone seems jealous" she whispers and i sign as i look up to see Lenas gaze. She is still in a deep conversation with Reid but focused on me. I don't hear her but see how she excuses herself from the table and walks towards the restrooms. Now they all are looking at me like i should do something, she's probably just going to the toilet.

"I'll be right back" i say with a sign even though they haven't told me outloud what to do. It's nice how i've managed to fit right into this team within such a short time. It took Emily a few months to get in this much, but it might be because no one actually knew her. I came here and knew half the team already. But i make my way to the restrooms where i find Lena washing her hands.

"You okay?" i ask, even though i know what's going on in that head of hers. I've been here before, unfortunately.

"It's nothing" she answers, glancing at me through the mirror.

"And why don't i believe you?" i say as i lean back against the wall. "Maybe because we've been here before"

"I am not jealous over Penelope" and the fact that she mentioned her name confirmed what i've been thinking.

"I never said anything about Penny. This is exactly what i'm talking about..." i have to stop myself before i go too far down this road. "I know you have trust issues and insecurities but you know that if i was going to leave you i would have by now. We've been together for thirteen year Lena, we're going to get married. Your parents have already started with the planning and i'm scared how much they're gonna spend." i take a deep breath as i walk over to her, turning her towards me and taking her hands in mine as i look into her warm eyes again. "So when that voice in your head says something about me leaving or not loving you, remember who is wearing your grandmother's wedding ring"

"I'm sorry" and i can see how she means it.

"It's okay, we've got the rest of our lives to do something about it, right?"

"Right..." but as she's about to say something else her pager blares through the room. "I have to go, i'm sorry again"

"It's okay Lena, whoever it is needs you more than i do right now. Go save some lives"

"What did i ever do to deserve you?" she kisses me and i try to feel like i did before. It's gonna come back right? It's just the trauma effect.

"I don't know but if i'm still awake when you get home i can show you" i answer with a smirk and a darkering in my eyes. We walk out at the same time, but divert as she walks out the door while i walk back to the table.

"Everything alright?" Morgan asks as he notices me sitting back down next to him where there now was an empty seat.

"Yeah, she had to get back to the hospital. Everything is fine" but i hear it in the way i say it that it's more to convince myself then them. I mean, i know some people are more needy and need reassurance all the time. But thirteen years of them, okay twelve since i was gone for eleven months. It's starting to get tiring, but i love her so i keep up with it.