Never letting you go (Penelope x reader)

The one where it's not the end

A/n and we're back... and not dead just yet. Sorry it's been such awhile but now i think we're gonna get back on track

Y/n pov

I felt as if there was more than one reason i wanted to not cancel on girls night. Today is the day i've been waiting for over a year now. And i don't want to be alone on this night. Any second now he's about to be executed and no one around me has a clue of what a big event is happening at this very moment in my life. But that's only one reason... the other is that i want her with me. Not anyone else, but her. Her presence will help me get past this day, i just know it.

We're walking in pairs out of the office. My hand is brushing against hers as we walk towards my car. There is this moment where the air is silent before my breath hitches. Pain strikes throughout my body. Then it's still. I meet her chocolate brown eyes with a pleading gaze before my body goes limp. I can feel how a warm cover is set over my chest. Her hands are holding my face and I realise i'm lying on the hard ground. Her mouth moves in words but it's quiet in my ear, not even ringing, it's just nothing. But i can tell that she says my name and all i want is to answer her. But the only thing getting out is the warm liquid that's spread throughout my body. It's not until she holds hard onto my limp hand that i find a fixed point to look at. Someone presses hard hands over my chest and i can't breathe. In fear i grab ahold of the only thing i'm aware of, her hand. But it's only a few seconds before her face fades into darkness and everything goes dark.

There are voices around me but it sounds more like a background white noise of the tv. I try to scream for them to hear me but it only echoes around me. It's like something is stuck in my throat, so that they can't hear me.

"Oh my god, Y/n" the familiar voice of Mark comes through the veil of darkness that keeps me from seeing. "What happened to her?" I scream for him to hear me, scream his name as high as i can. But it still shoots back in echoes, making me cover my ears at the sound of my own voice. I could even feel his presence when he came in.... And when he walked out of the room.

"Please Y/n, we can't do this without you, i can't do this without you, please wake up" another pleading voice echoes through and it's like music to my ears. A warmth follows up my hand and holds on hard. I try so hard to grip back but it doesn't work. "Come one, you're no ditcher, remember" i can't stop the tears from falling over my cheeks. "We're supposed to have a girls night together, we were supposed to get together and talk about it. I can't live if we don't get to talk about it" I try one last time to scream out for her to hear me, but it's useless and my voice breaks halfways through in a sob. I fall back into the corner of two walls of blackness and let it start to surround me.

"Please come back to us... come back to me" she cries as a last time and i feel hot tears fall onto my arm, but they're not mine. They're hers... Penelope's.

"I'm trying Penelope" i scream out but this time it doesn't echo back, it's stuck with the thing in my throat. Panic starts to fill me as i scratch at my throat. Multiple warm hands meet my skin and i feel the one in my hand start to lighten, so i use all my power to hold it still. And it works this time. Now instead of only being on one side of my hand the warmth spreads around my hand. I grasp even harder for her hand as the hard thing in my throat is being pulled out. I can feel when it's out, it's like i can finally breathe again. Like i've been stuck in this black room for years and someone finally opened a window. But the thing that hits me is the cold white light coming from the window. Every inch of my body becomes cold again except for my hand. I want to lean into that warmth but it's like my body is recovering from being in cement.

"Honey, don't try to move just yet" Penelope says comfortingly. I can feel my whole body relax and a smile come upon my face. The black room is no longer there and the black veil has turned into my eyelids. "Gods, you have no idea of how much i've missed your smile" i turn my head towards the voice and try to open my eyes just to see that she's actually there. It takes a few seconds for my eyes to adjust to the light, and they still are blurry, but i can see her. Her blonde locks, her brown eyes looking at me and her normally colourful clothes. I need to talk to her, i need to tell her how i feel. But as i open my mouth to speak, nothing comes out. "I love you" her confession doesn't surprise me but i can't say anything. "There i said it and... you're quiet and think i'm weird... and i should go"

As she's about to walk out i start to fight with the cables that are connecting me and try to get up. That makes her stop and make her way back to me. Taking a hold of my arms to stop me. Which brings her face closer to mine. I feel how tears are streaming down my cheeks as it's now or never. Now i was given a second chance at life, literally, and i'm not about to waste it. So i pull her down to let her lips meet mine. It's nothing like i've ever had before. Not filled with lust or craving, but with only love and a few salty tears. Her lips are soft, not like anything i've ever known before. Soft like the first snowfall, like biting into cotton candy at a Carnival. Like melting and floating, being weightless in water. It's just so sweet... so effortlessly sweet.

"Sometimes life gives you a second chance, or even two. Not always, but sometimes. It's what you do with those second changes that counts"     Dave Wilson